The Good, Painful Dream
Today, I dreamt that I was able to personally meet Yuto and become friends. It wasn't just any other dreams that I usually dream of when I dream of Yuto --or someone related. Unlike all the other dreams, it was TOO real that I didn't even realize that it was a dream until I woke up. And when I say TOO real, I mean I was able to understand each conversation clearly and I can still EXACTLY remember what I saw in the dream.
I wouldn't go very descriptive, but I'll include the highlights of the dream.
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It was a retreat. I can't exactly tell what kind of retreat. I think it was just simply a camp where we go on an outing with some people. I was with some friends. It didn't look like the Philippines, but I was pretty sure it was something like Japan, except it was in the rural areas. There were lots of trees around, but a few buildings. I think those were the cottages or cabins where the campers were staying.
Then there's the main hall, where all the events of the camp went on. There was a stage. The stage actually looked like the place where I'll be going this Friday for a retreat, except the surroundings looked a bit different.
Then, I saw JUMP performing somewhere. But I wasn't sure. The place looked different from the place where we were camping. It looked like a shopping mall (o__O) When the show was over, I saw myself talking to a few members in JUMP (okay, this is even weirder). When I saw Chinen, I squished his cheeks and said, "OH MY GOSH! YOU'RE SOOOOO CUTE!" And I hugged him. Then Yama-chan was laughing. Then I saw Yuto behind me. He looked... okay, I don't remember that part much. All I remembered was that that was my first time to meet Yuto and the others.
Then back to that event hall in the camp venue, I saw one of my friends playing with my head (like massaging) and I saw everyone gathered in that stage. Then I saw the rest of JUMP performing Magic Power. While my friend was playing with my head, Yuto looked at me and smiled. I was sure I was so shocked, excited, giddy, happy, and for sure, my heart stopped for awhile (It's funny that I was able to feel all that even in my dreams). After that, my friends had a hard time getting my attention every time they wanted to tell me something because my focus was on Yuto smiling straight at me while they were performing.
I assume it was the next day when I saw myself going out of my cottage. It was on a hill, so I had to go down to move from one place to another in the venue. The entire place looked like a forest. Then I saw JUMP members going down the hill. I think they had a photoshoot. They were all dressed in a school uniform or something. But they were all wearing different kinds. I saw Yuto down the hill and I caught up with him. Apparently, we were walking the same direction, so we were talking while walking. I don't remember the entire conversation much, but I remember Yuto asking me things like, "How are you today?" And since it was so bright and sunny out, he was sweating a bit. We just kept smiling while we were talking. Then we both heard someone (I think it was Keito?) shouting, "Yuya fell down! Can someone help him up?" Yuto looked like he wanted to walk with me, but I told him to go and help Keito pull Yuya up. So Yuto ran back to the hill while I waited for him to come back. And so Yuto came back while Keito and Yuya just went ahead to their van.
I guess they were heading out elsewhere. They rode a van (or was it a pickup truck? I forget) and I just watched them ride the van. I didn't even get a chance to say 'Bye' to Yuto. All I remembered was Yuto smiled and rode the van and I just watched the van leave. I told sighed and told myself, "But there were so much that I wanted to tell you. I don't know how I'll ever tell you."
I went back to the hill to see my friends waiting for me.
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It sounded kinda like a story, ne~? It was indeed, a really nice dream, but why does it hurt? (; A ;) Is it because of the fact that it was just a dream or that I wasn't able to tell Yuto everything I had to tell him --that even in dreams, my feelings for him never reach him?
/le sigh (;___;)
Yuto, I hope you'll come to know one day.
I wouldn't go very descriptive, but I'll include the highlights of the dream.
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It was a retreat. I can't exactly tell what kind of retreat. I think it was just simply a camp where we go on an outing with some people. I was with some friends. It didn't look like the Philippines, but I was pretty sure it was something like Japan, except it was in the rural areas. There were lots of trees around, but a few buildings. I think those were the cottages or cabins where the campers were staying.
Then there's the main hall, where all the events of the camp went on. There was a stage. The stage actually looked like the place where I'll be going this Friday for a retreat, except the surroundings looked a bit different.
Then, I saw JUMP performing somewhere. But I wasn't sure. The place looked different from the place where we were camping. It looked like a shopping mall (o__O) When the show was over, I saw myself talking to a few members in JUMP (okay, this is even weirder). When I saw Chinen, I squished his cheeks and said, "OH MY GOSH! YOU'RE SOOOOO CUTE!" And I hugged him. Then Yama-chan was laughing. Then I saw Yuto behind me. He looked... okay, I don't remember that part much. All I remembered was that that was my first time to meet Yuto and the others.
Then back to that event hall in the camp venue, I saw one of my friends playing with my head (like massaging) and I saw everyone gathered in that stage. Then I saw the rest of JUMP performing Magic Power. While my friend was playing with my head, Yuto looked at me and smiled. I was sure I was so shocked, excited, giddy, happy, and for sure, my heart stopped for awhile (It's funny that I was able to feel all that even in my dreams). After that, my friends had a hard time getting my attention every time they wanted to tell me something because my focus was on Yuto smiling straight at me while they were performing.
I assume it was the next day when I saw myself going out of my cottage. It was on a hill, so I had to go down to move from one place to another in the venue. The entire place looked like a forest. Then I saw JUMP members going down the hill. I think they had a photoshoot. They were all dressed in a school uniform or something. But they were all wearing different kinds. I saw Yuto down the hill and I caught up with him. Apparently, we were walking the same direction, so we were talking while walking. I don't remember the entire conversation much, but I remember Yuto asking me things like, "How are you today?" And since it was so bright and sunny out, he was sweating a bit. We just kept smiling while we were talking. Then we both heard someone (I think it was Keito?) shouting, "Yuya fell down! Can someone help him up?" Yuto looked like he wanted to walk with me, but I told him to go and help Keito pull Yuya up. So Yuto ran back to the hill while I waited for him to come back. And so Yuto came back while Keito and Yuya just went ahead to their van.
I guess they were heading out elsewhere. They rode a van (or was it a pickup truck? I forget) and I just watched them ride the van. I didn't even get a chance to say 'Bye' to Yuto. All I remembered was Yuto smiled and rode the van and I just watched the van leave. I told sighed and told myself, "But there were so much that I wanted to tell you. I don't know how I'll ever tell you."
I went back to the hill to see my friends waiting for me.
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It sounded kinda like a story, ne~? It was indeed, a really nice dream, but why does it hurt? (; A ;) Is it because of the fact that it was just a dream or that I wasn't able to tell Yuto everything I had to tell him --that even in dreams, my feelings for him never reach him?
/le sigh (;___;)
Yuto, I hope you'll come to know one day.