It's Not You, It's Me.
I don’t even know why I’m actually writing this now. It’s just maybe I’m really confused right now. I know I’m not supposed to do anything about it. But still, I feel like I wanted to do something about it.
Last December, I told myself that I would want to marry you, or at least someone like you. I’ve liked you ever since I first saw you, stopped for awhile after beginning to feel for someone else. Then you came around again a couple of years and show me who you really are. Then I eventually begin to fall for who you are. Then he came.
A friend of his (whom I don’t think he considers friend now) told me that he liked me. I wasn’t sure at first, I doubted his friend. But I realized no one would make a joke like that - even if he was the most foolish person walking on earth.
Eventually, he confesses to me after apologizing for what had happen, that it might have been awkward for awhile. I wasn’t sure how to react. I wasn’t even sure in the first place how I was feeling. All I know is that I was okay with it and I didn’t make it awkward, at least. Even now, sometimes we bring it up and it’s not weird. I’m glad I heard it from him, still, though.
The point is I might have hurt him in some ways because he knows that I like you, especially considering the fact that he liked me for a really long time (and sure, he was REALLY good in keeping it from everyone).
Maybe if I knew earlier, I wouldn’t have hurt him more and could’ve been more careful.
But that doesn’t do anything either. There is no way he would’ve told me anyway if it weren’t for his friend telling me everything for him. So whatever.
So why am I blabbering? Why am I even writing this? That’s because I’m really confused right now. I don’t really know how I feel towards him.
The problem isn’t him why I don’t feel the same why. The problem is with me that I don’t understand if I like him or not.
He’s a REALLY great guy. I honestly wish I was able to return the feelings, but my feelings for you are just too strong. You’re the only one I could imagine spending my entire life with. You’re the kind of man I’ve always wanted to marry.
But now sometimes, I feel like my heartstrings are pulled by some things he does. I know that the kind of love that I feel for him is just platonic, but then I don’t see it that way either anymore.
I was never this confused about these things in my life ever.
I wish I understood myself better so I wouldn’t be this confused anymore.
Last December, I told myself that I would want to marry you, or at least someone like you. I’ve liked you ever since I first saw you, stopped for awhile after beginning to feel for someone else. Then you came around again a couple of years and show me who you really are. Then I eventually begin to fall for who you are. Then he came.
A friend of his (whom I don’t think he considers friend now) told me that he liked me. I wasn’t sure at first, I doubted his friend. But I realized no one would make a joke like that - even if he was the most foolish person walking on earth.
Eventually, he confesses to me after apologizing for what had happen, that it might have been awkward for awhile. I wasn’t sure how to react. I wasn’t even sure in the first place how I was feeling. All I know is that I was okay with it and I didn’t make it awkward, at least. Even now, sometimes we bring it up and it’s not weird. I’m glad I heard it from him, still, though.
The point is I might have hurt him in some ways because he knows that I like you, especially considering the fact that he liked me for a really long time (and sure, he was REALLY good in keeping it from everyone).
Maybe if I knew earlier, I wouldn’t have hurt him more and could’ve been more careful.
But that doesn’t do anything either. There is no way he would’ve told me anyway if it weren’t for his friend telling me everything for him. So whatever.
So why am I blabbering? Why am I even writing this? That’s because I’m really confused right now. I don’t really know how I feel towards him.
The problem isn’t him why I don’t feel the same why. The problem is with me that I don’t understand if I like him or not.
He’s a REALLY great guy. I honestly wish I was able to return the feelings, but my feelings for you are just too strong. You’re the only one I could imagine spending my entire life with. You’re the kind of man I’ve always wanted to marry.
But now sometimes, I feel like my heartstrings are pulled by some things he does. I know that the kind of love that I feel for him is just platonic, but then I don’t see it that way either anymore.
I was never this confused about these things in my life ever.
I wish I understood myself better so I wouldn’t be this confused anymore.