3 sleepless nights....this isnt how its suppose to be...

[serah_dakin]

Do you ever feel so alone...to the point that you give in to any kind of emotion? Even if its meaningless...you still give in...because it feels good in that specific moment. It feels as if your are not alone. Your are not the only one who needs to fill this void. And yet, I ponder this meaning everytime I repeat this mistake...regret collides with its integrity. He doesnt care...he will never care...so why put yourself in this position? Its not worth it. You just feel like an awful person in the morning, more so, than you did before it took place. Feeling alone was my biggest mistake...because now I blame this void on being alone. But, the end result...is that I fucked up. An emotion can not take the blame...I just didnt think about the aftermath.

Nothing happens
Nothing happens
Nothing happens
And then everything happens...

****************************How I feel right now*************************************************

3 sleepless nights, this isnt how its suppose to be.
But your so good at taking your time...to give back to me.

I will wait for you forever...if you would just ask me.
I thought that I could change you, but you changed me...

It doesnt feel right...holding someone else's hand.
Together on phone lines, living on two opposite ends...

It scares me to think that you could find takers....other than me, and better than me.
But your head is elsewhere, and Im talking enough for the both of us.
When will you see...its not so easy for me?

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