conflicting feelings
Im so confused...I dont know what I want. My feelings are just so conflicted. Ive spent a semester single and working on me and I was happy with that. Now there are these new possibilities that come with the summer and come with going to a new school. What do I do with the guy who I have to face and hope that Im over? Am I strong enough to see him? What do I do with the guy who is one of my best friends? At times he just pisses the fuck out of me...like yesterday when we hung up on eachother and were short with eachother. But then there are the times, like the day b4 that when things are wonderful. and with the fucking hints he throws around it just confuses me, I wanted to ask him the other day what is it that he wants, but realized I cant do that if I dont know what I want. I just wanna be content with being single again. I have so much shit for me that I have to deal with instead of dealing with assholes. especially when most of you assholes scare the shit out of me...I just dont know what to do.