at peace
Yeah, thats me. im fine. despite my problems, I'm not going to become bitter because that's what you do. no. sure you can harden a bit, maybe be a little less trusting, but nah, I refuse to become an asshole/bitch whatever you wanna call me. I'm a positive person, and I refuse to become overcome with hate. I just realized, yes, i have a dislike for certain people, but do i truly honestly hate them? no. i may of been wronged, and may have wronged others, but you know what? under everything im like everyone else and I make mistakes and I'm not afraid to humble myself before people and apologize. so yes, I'm sorry if I hurt anyone I used to be friends/lovers with. Yeah, I feel bad, but people need to move on. Just like me. I've moved on. I don't know, I think I just get so caught up and like frustrated with people who I know will never change. They just won't. They'll just continue on this vicious path of negative energy, and I'm not about to even try to fix it anymore. In a way, I'm giving up trying to change anyone. People will be who they are, and that's a choice. No, you can't blame other people for what you're like, because you decided to give that person enough power to have control over what kind of a person you are. Do you understand what I'm saying?
People will be who they are regardless of what you do or say. They will do what they want or feel like doing. And you have no control over it. That's how it is. Me? If i could wish something it would be that everyone would strive to be a better person. But that's not everyone. People get hurt, and instead of taking a positive spin on things what they do is that they internalize a great deal of rage and they chose to unleash it onto the world. I guess I could understand that. It's so easy to do. To hate someone. To be angry.
I don't feel guilty for anything. I'm honest about my feelings and some people just would rather not hear it. I do feel bad when my honesty does hurt people. For that I always apologize.
one more thing. just for the record. im not selfish. and yes, I look out for my own well-being because everyone else should do that. I look out for those who are close to me, but I refuse to simply give up my voice or remain silent when I feel like someone is going out of line. I'm not going to keep my mouth shut. Sorry.
And finally. I know it's a lot, but people really need to be careful when they post blogs on myspace cause EVERYONE can read it. So... you know who you are, and for someone who doesn't like drama, you really seem to like to put your business out there. Here's my blog where I'm kind of mad and I'm not going to mention any names because I'm like every other myspacer person. I'm real flippin cool. Ok that's my piece. Goodnight!