boys...... argh....... rrr....... eh
i am posting today out of the sheer need to talk to someone. the people i want to talk to either arent around to listen or i am uncomfortable asking them to listen; the people that i know will listen either arent around or i dont want to talk to. so i will talk to you despite the fact that some of my readers are those i dont want to talk to; it might be good for you to hear it.
anyway, today i left the house at 630am and returned home at 1000pm. i went to the gym till 900 and then i helped prepare for vacation bible school at my church/school.
boys can be wonderful friends, and all of my life i have more easily made friends with them than the girls. i have many guy-friends and very often i just want to be friends with them. guys dont realize how much of a comfort they are to girls. a civil conversation in which i can take something from and apply it to my life is so incredibly hard to come by; these are the things a girl wants from a guy.
i am so frustrated. i want to have guys as my friends, they owe me nothing i owe them nothing. i had a 12 year old try to kiss me today. it took all i had to push him off of me. i have known this kid for over a year and i would love to be friends with him, but i dont think i can even do that. i had another friend tell me that i didnt know them at all, though he is very wrong i just wish he would stop whatever it is that is going on in his head. i am tired of all of it. a guy named brandon, in a red monkey suit came up to me today and would not stop flirting and touching me, he was nice, but i had just gotten out of dealing with the two boys i spoke of above. because i had dealt with them i second guessed the men i was around-- men i have known for years to be wonderful people. i hate the fact that experienced like that put me on my guard.
i love people, i love to encourage them and just all around help them. i dont know if i can do that anymore at least for the boys. another one of my guy friends writes daily about me in his online journal, yet he will not address me about it. i thought i was just being nice to him. why do guys want so much more than a friend. it discusts me i want to cry, but i bet you would never guess the type of person i want to cry to....
i want a guy with nice strong arms just to hug me -- find nothing more in it-- and tell me exactly what i should do to make all of these things stop. i want to tell some one, i am scared i want someone to help me. if anything like what happened today happens again i will not resist from slapping him right accross the face, he was completely out of line. in a way it is funny, i guess. i just want boys to go away and i want to see men acting like men, and doing there jobs as God planned for them to do.
goodnight.
--Carley
anyway, today i left the house at 630am and returned home at 1000pm. i went to the gym till 900 and then i helped prepare for vacation bible school at my church/school.
boys can be wonderful friends, and all of my life i have more easily made friends with them than the girls. i have many guy-friends and very often i just want to be friends with them. guys dont realize how much of a comfort they are to girls. a civil conversation in which i can take something from and apply it to my life is so incredibly hard to come by; these are the things a girl wants from a guy.
i am so frustrated. i want to have guys as my friends, they owe me nothing i owe them nothing. i had a 12 year old try to kiss me today. it took all i had to push him off of me. i have known this kid for over a year and i would love to be friends with him, but i dont think i can even do that. i had another friend tell me that i didnt know them at all, though he is very wrong i just wish he would stop whatever it is that is going on in his head. i am tired of all of it. a guy named brandon, in a red monkey suit came up to me today and would not stop flirting and touching me, he was nice, but i had just gotten out of dealing with the two boys i spoke of above. because i had dealt with them i second guessed the men i was around-- men i have known for years to be wonderful people. i hate the fact that experienced like that put me on my guard.
i love people, i love to encourage them and just all around help them. i dont know if i can do that anymore at least for the boys. another one of my guy friends writes daily about me in his online journal, yet he will not address me about it. i thought i was just being nice to him. why do guys want so much more than a friend. it discusts me i want to cry, but i bet you would never guess the type of person i want to cry to....
i want a guy with nice strong arms just to hug me -- find nothing more in it-- and tell me exactly what i should do to make all of these things stop. i want to tell some one, i am scared i want someone to help me. if anything like what happened today happens again i will not resist from slapping him right accross the face, he was completely out of line. in a way it is funny, i guess. i just want boys to go away and i want to see men acting like men, and doing there jobs as God planned for them to do.
goodnight.
--Carley