No, seriously..
Before I start this, I want to say this: This post isn't meant to sound like a complaint... just contemplative on the things that occur in my life.
I really have a problem with when I love someone. I bend over backwards to be the perfect guy - but it's not so much me changing myself as me BEING myself (which is trying to be the perfect guy for whomever I'm with).
Like yesterday. Wow. I could wake up next to him forever (only 1 out of 2 people I would say this about). It's not gonna happen. Identity won't be disclosed just for security purposes on his part, but honestly... as much of a screw up as he is, I would take all the bad that came with him for just a little of the good. Nevertheless, I'm grasping at straws.
Maybe I should just chill out and go on with life like I do. But GOD. If every night could be like last night and every morning I could wake up to see him, I'd be good. Seriously.
I really have a problem with when I love someone. I bend over backwards to be the perfect guy - but it's not so much me changing myself as me BEING myself (which is trying to be the perfect guy for whomever I'm with).
Like yesterday. Wow. I could wake up next to him forever (only 1 out of 2 people I would say this about). It's not gonna happen. Identity won't be disclosed just for security purposes on his part, but honestly... as much of a screw up as he is, I would take all the bad that came with him for just a little of the good. Nevertheless, I'm grasping at straws.
Maybe I should just chill out and go on with life like I do. But GOD. If every night could be like last night and every morning I could wake up to see him, I'd be good. Seriously.