A wrecking ball couldn't do more damage at this point..
Had a wreck yesterday. Totaled my car. I feel alright considering I guess. Don't really know what to do at the moment. I just can't go anywhere, do anything, you know. Yesterday after the wreck I was upset for incredibly too long... I made myself come home and take some tylenol pm to make myself sleep for a bit. I was having morbid thoughts. Best to sleep and forget. When I woke up I remembered I was stuck here staring at the ceiling... sucks. Oh well, a day later and I decide I'm bored enough to update the joys of my life.
School is going alright I guess. I'm going to be stuck here next fall. Joy of all joys. Can't I be allowed to just break away? Sometimes I think the band-aid way of going about pain isn't the best. Sometimes it's nice having it on a little longer.... it does give comfort. But at the same time, if I don't let go I'm always stuck with this horrible feeling of ifs and they never help.
Am I being coherent? I hope so considering this is my first update in ages. I think I'll change my picture. I'm tired of being artistic.
You know, I think I'm done writing for the day. I'ma go sit on the porch in the beautiful crisp air and hopefully remember that tomorrow is another day, I'll be fine, and that things just may work out for me in the end.
Sky - Joshua Radin
I woke dreaming we had broke
Dreaming you left me for someone new
And you cried, drying those brown eyes
Crying you're sorry - sorry won't do
But this is the way I need to wake
I wake to you
And you never left me
All that I dreamt had been untrue
Open my eyes
I see sky
Oh, oh, oh, oh, you know the way to keep me on my toes
I, I, I will be fine - just say you'll stay forever mine
'Til we fall asleep tonight
Last night, we had a great fight
I fell asleep in a horrible state
Then dreamt that you loved my best friend
My heart would not mend - seemed it was fate
But this is the way I need to wake
I wake to you
And you never left me
All that I dreamt had been untrue
Open my eyes
I see sky
Oh, oh, oh, oh, you know the way to keep me on my toes
I, I, I will be fine - just say you'll stay forever mine
'Til we fall asleep tonight
Sometimes I forget to love you like I should
But I'd never leave you - no, I never would
I never would
Oh, oh, oh, oh, you know the way to keep me on my toes
I, I, I will be fine - just say you'll stay forever mine
Oh, oh, oh, oh, you know the way to keep me on my toes
I, I, I will be fine - just say you'll stay forever mine
'Til we fall asleep tonight
'Til we fall asleep tonight
-Me
School is going alright I guess. I'm going to be stuck here next fall. Joy of all joys. Can't I be allowed to just break away? Sometimes I think the band-aid way of going about pain isn't the best. Sometimes it's nice having it on a little longer.... it does give comfort. But at the same time, if I don't let go I'm always stuck with this horrible feeling of ifs and they never help.
Am I being coherent? I hope so considering this is my first update in ages. I think I'll change my picture. I'm tired of being artistic.
You know, I think I'm done writing for the day. I'ma go sit on the porch in the beautiful crisp air and hopefully remember that tomorrow is another day, I'll be fine, and that things just may work out for me in the end.
Sky - Joshua Radin
I woke dreaming we had broke
Dreaming you left me for someone new
And you cried, drying those brown eyes
Crying you're sorry - sorry won't do
But this is the way I need to wake
I wake to you
And you never left me
All that I dreamt had been untrue
Open my eyes
I see sky
Oh, oh, oh, oh, you know the way to keep me on my toes
I, I, I will be fine - just say you'll stay forever mine
'Til we fall asleep tonight
Last night, we had a great fight
I fell asleep in a horrible state
Then dreamt that you loved my best friend
My heart would not mend - seemed it was fate
But this is the way I need to wake
I wake to you
And you never left me
All that I dreamt had been untrue
Open my eyes
I see sky
Oh, oh, oh, oh, you know the way to keep me on my toes
I, I, I will be fine - just say you'll stay forever mine
'Til we fall asleep tonight
Sometimes I forget to love you like I should
But I'd never leave you - no, I never would
I never would
Oh, oh, oh, oh, you know the way to keep me on my toes
I, I, I will be fine - just say you'll stay forever mine
Oh, oh, oh, oh, you know the way to keep me on my toes
I, I, I will be fine - just say you'll stay forever mine
'Til we fall asleep tonight
'Til we fall asleep tonight
-Me