happy suicide
today was interesting to say the least wasnt bad and wasnt good. I got into a fight with my mom because i was mad at her for convincing me to go so far away from home where i know noone but i began to think that ive pretty much become what ive wanted in life. Im a kind person who helps people all the time even if i dont know them. Im pretty fun to hang out with or so ive been told and im pretty strong which ive worked at for a long time. I started thinking about this then thought about killing myself because i had accomplished the only real thing i wanted to be i cant think of anything else i can do because i suk at everything academic and i fear growing old. I dont know maybe im crazy but i wasnt sad i felt at peace with myself and accomplished. That probably doesnt make sense but whatever. Anyways i didnt and im not going to so dont worry about it i just got some issues to work out