Letdown and confused
The elation of last Saturday (my previous post) has been replaced with frustration and anxiety as the week wore on, and the few messages I left for Ali continued to go unanswered. Confusion is another feeling I've been filled with this past week.
We seemed to hit it off...she gave me her number without my asking. While I don't know what the intention was, whether just to mess around, dating, or something more serious, everything seemed to point towards continuance. Then this...
...I've got this feeling that it isn't a matter of not calling me back, but rather a inability to do so. In my vast over-imaginings, I can certainly conceive of numerous reasons for this, though, even if I could just accept that possibility, it certainly solves nothing, and would only serve to negate the hit to my self-esteem. However, I can't seem to shake that hit.
At the least, I'd like to know what's going on. If it is, in fact, a form of rejection, I can deal with that, though it'd do nothing to quash the confusion, but at least I'd not be in the dark.
We seemed to hit it off...she gave me her number without my asking. While I don't know what the intention was, whether just to mess around, dating, or something more serious, everything seemed to point towards continuance. Then this...
...I've got this feeling that it isn't a matter of not calling me back, but rather a inability to do so. In my vast over-imaginings, I can certainly conceive of numerous reasons for this, though, even if I could just accept that possibility, it certainly solves nothing, and would only serve to negate the hit to my self-esteem. However, I can't seem to shake that hit.
At the least, I'd like to know what's going on. If it is, in fact, a form of rejection, I can deal with that, though it'd do nothing to quash the confusion, but at least I'd not be in the dark.