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Hi.
Hmm.
So everything is pretty swell of late. Mostly.
Dad ACTUALLY cleaned most of the yard all by himself with no one bugging him.
That means I almost have a yard again.
The kitchen is still blitzed, but I eat out anyway.
I am pretty much just a projectionist now and although there is a little hubbub about one co- worker who is irritating the hell out of the rest of us in small vindictive ways; It's all good.
One of my friends from work just went to a youtube gathering in portland oregon. LMAO.
I havn't really mentioned that I've been to two tweetups in edmonton, nor that I have met some random fandom high people in Vancouver.
Despite that his trip makes me really want to travel again. Even somewhere small. My mom was away three weeks on a roadtrip around BC visiting people. I think this is great, but she is back here and she's having a low day. I'm kindof worried as she went off her medication in february thinking she can manage it herself. I try not to worry.
I've been working alot lately, I love my job but I have been trying to not go in, even to watch a movie, on my days off. Today I couldn't help it.
I have some good friends at work now and I just felt the need to go somewhere I feel in control around people I know who would in little ways give me some support.
Lol, they gave me hell for being there on my day off and refused to let me help them.*Except my poor aussie friend Tim who had a blaring fever and he could barely thread the machines upstairs, he didn't have any medication for it, so I gave him something to kill the fever* He didn't have the strength of will to stop me from helping upstairs for a bit lol.
Then I went to Denny's with three of the girls from work.^-^ :D XD It was awesome, then we went to walmart as it was still open.
I would have gone to the comic jam today, but I needed to get my gardening done. I bought four bushes to fill in space. I WILL make my yard man proof, lol.
It feels like everything is going in a good direction.
In some ways I feel that my decision to go to london is me trying to escape life. In other ways I fear I could lose everything I've built with all the amazing people I love here.
I wanted to go to London to help find who I am. To get away from these stupid winters that bring me down half the year.
Now I don't know what to think.
If I did manage to get an art job going, that didn't matter where I went, I would stay here half the year. I love this city in the summer, even in the spring and some of the fall.
I love the people.
I hate the country songs. I hate the lack of tolerance. The growing pains. The lack of things to do.
I'm tired of people who don't know what to do, what they want to do; so they go drink their brains away. Shit their lives out.
It makes me sad to see people make stupid misteaks. Like no other job, seeing 15 year olds get into drugs and shit faced.
In the same way, finding the people who recognized these things and strive to find who they are without dwelling on who they aren't.
There are just some things I can't fix.
And I accept that.
As with most things in life, I'll just have to wait and see.
^-^
Hmm.
So everything is pretty swell of late. Mostly.
Dad ACTUALLY cleaned most of the yard all by himself with no one bugging him.
That means I almost have a yard again.
The kitchen is still blitzed, but I eat out anyway.
I am pretty much just a projectionist now and although there is a little hubbub about one co- worker who is irritating the hell out of the rest of us in small vindictive ways; It's all good.
One of my friends from work just went to a youtube gathering in portland oregon. LMAO.
I havn't really mentioned that I've been to two tweetups in edmonton, nor that I have met some random fandom high people in Vancouver.
Despite that his trip makes me really want to travel again. Even somewhere small. My mom was away three weeks on a roadtrip around BC visiting people. I think this is great, but she is back here and she's having a low day. I'm kindof worried as she went off her medication in february thinking she can manage it herself. I try not to worry.
I've been working alot lately, I love my job but I have been trying to not go in, even to watch a movie, on my days off. Today I couldn't help it.
I have some good friends at work now and I just felt the need to go somewhere I feel in control around people I know who would in little ways give me some support.
Lol, they gave me hell for being there on my day off and refused to let me help them.*Except my poor aussie friend Tim who had a blaring fever and he could barely thread the machines upstairs, he didn't have any medication for it, so I gave him something to kill the fever* He didn't have the strength of will to stop me from helping upstairs for a bit lol.
Then I went to Denny's with three of the girls from work.^-^ :D XD It was awesome, then we went to walmart as it was still open.
I would have gone to the comic jam today, but I needed to get my gardening done. I bought four bushes to fill in space. I WILL make my yard man proof, lol.
It feels like everything is going in a good direction.
In some ways I feel that my decision to go to london is me trying to escape life. In other ways I fear I could lose everything I've built with all the amazing people I love here.
I wanted to go to London to help find who I am. To get away from these stupid winters that bring me down half the year.
Now I don't know what to think.
If I did manage to get an art job going, that didn't matter where I went, I would stay here half the year. I love this city in the summer, even in the spring and some of the fall.
I love the people.
I hate the country songs. I hate the lack of tolerance. The growing pains. The lack of things to do.
I'm tired of people who don't know what to do, what they want to do; so they go drink their brains away. Shit their lives out.
It makes me sad to see people make stupid misteaks. Like no other job, seeing 15 year olds get into drugs and shit faced.
In the same way, finding the people who recognized these things and strive to find who they are without dwelling on who they aren't.
There are just some things I can't fix.
And I accept that.
As with most things in life, I'll just have to wait and see.
^-^