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I am conflicted about work. Honestly I LOVE being a projectionist like you woulsn't believe. But I am NOT making enough money to live and pay things off...
I love the people I work with, however high school they really are... no really most of them are really in high school.
I am confused about something else entierly which I do not discuss with anyone ever...well maybe there have been a few people... but not the internet... you are too many, even if there is a random coming across.
*note all you who actually have access to this are probably people I trust cause this is the closest to airing out my feelings I ever get*
Life is feeling like a game of cards where everyone has a poker face and I have to guess what's going to happen next. I don't think this is a win/lose game. But it sure feels like it. I don't like the instability.
Yes I admit I have happily lived in my bubble, as some of you may know. But I have also been dealing with alot and growing up alot, which some of you know. I know people change the most between the ages of 20 and 30 but why do I need to feel like this now, couldn't I have gotten over this by like age 15...
I felt more stable at 15.
Maybe cause most of my family wasn't so crazy *read as my mom wasn't so crazy*
I think this is because I lost myself and as such have been searching all the places I have been to find myself. "go west young man"...seeing as I am not a man I suppose I'll settle with going east.
If this dosn't make any sense. Don't worry. It makes no sense to me either.
I love the people I work with, however high school they really are... no really most of them are really in high school.
I am confused about something else entierly which I do not discuss with anyone ever...well maybe there have been a few people... but not the internet... you are too many, even if there is a random coming across.
*note all you who actually have access to this are probably people I trust cause this is the closest to airing out my feelings I ever get*
Life is feeling like a game of cards where everyone has a poker face and I have to guess what's going to happen next. I don't think this is a win/lose game. But it sure feels like it. I don't like the instability.
Yes I admit I have happily lived in my bubble, as some of you may know. But I have also been dealing with alot and growing up alot, which some of you know. I know people change the most between the ages of 20 and 30 but why do I need to feel like this now, couldn't I have gotten over this by like age 15...
I felt more stable at 15.
Maybe cause most of my family wasn't so crazy *read as my mom wasn't so crazy*
I think this is because I lost myself and as such have been searching all the places I have been to find myself. "go west young man"...seeing as I am not a man I suppose I'll settle with going east.
If this dosn't make any sense. Don't worry. It makes no sense to me either.