Post #24

[seoulfulness]

Fics (#23)

The Weather Channel infinite, woohyun/sunggyu
Sharing the Stage 4minute/after school/kara/secret/sistar
and i'm joining up the dots exo, kai/d.o
i'll follow you until you love me exo, gen
grip block b, b-bomb/zico
untitled btob, hyunsik/sungjae
we are infinite shinee, gen
start over reply 1997, joonhee/yoonjae
wonderful tonight b1a4/

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Re: exo, kai/suho; nothing worth remembering [2]

[anonymous]

He didn’t like appearing this way in front of Joonmyun. It felt all too naked, raw. And Jongin hated it. He hated exposing himself to Joonmyun - or to anybody, even himself. Pretenses stopped emotion. Emotion was only trouble. It had always been easier to hide, to escape.

But he’d said yes when Joonmyun asked if he wouldn’t mind him staying the night. When Joonmyun had put his arm around Jongin that night, Jongin had made no move to change it. He’d breathed in the scent of Joonmyun, of comfort and warmth and something stable. He’d buried himself into Joonmyun’s neck, breathing slowly evening in the warmth.

And the next morning, he’d hated himself for it. Joonmyun had seemed brighter that morning, pouring Jongin cereal and milk and giving him an affectionate hair ruffle before they took their seats for the exam. ‘Good luck,’ he’d said, with that twinkle in his eye Jongin now loathed himself for noticing. He hadn’t replied.

Calls to Joonmyun had stopped. He’d changed seats during literature class. He had told himself that it was no use staying, when he could run away and forget.

-

But Jongin remembers. And it still hurts.

‘You said you wanted to tell me something over dinner?’ Joonmyun asks, ever-concerned. It’s been three years out of university. Contact’s been minimal within their entire friend circle as a whole - dinners have come and gone, because there is only one thing worth remembering, the one thing Jongin needs to forget.

His mouth is dry. Breath hitches, stilling in his ribcage until it feels like there’s no more. He remembers that Joonmyun had said there were many ways to saying one thing. Maybe he could kiss Joonmyun, right then and there. Maybe he could write Joonmyun a letter. Or maybe he could wait for Joonmyun to realize, because the truth is that Jongin's scared; scared of himself, scared of love, and maybe Joonmyun is the one who can make it alright.

‘Nothing,’ Jongin manages. ‘Nothing worth remembering.’

Joonmyun smiles.

/orz anon it's four in the morning and i really did try T_T

Re: exo, kai/suho; nothing worth remembering [2]

[anonymous]

Oh, this is heartbreaking :( In a delicious way :(