post #16
Fics( #15).
Always EXO, Kris/Lay, Xiumin/Luhan, Tao/Chen
give a little, get a lot infinite, hoya/sunggyu
shush 4minute/f(x), hyuna-centric, hyuna/amber [warning: self-injury]
birthday girl f(x), amber/krystal
raise infinite, woohyun/sunggyu
some like it hot exo, kai/chanyeol [warning: harm]
untitled exo, chanyeol/d.o.
seeking a friend at the end ( Read more... )
Always EXO, Kris/Lay, Xiumin/Luhan, Tao/Chen
give a little, get a lot infinite, hoya/sunggyu
shush 4minute/f(x), hyuna-centric, hyuna/amber [warning: self-injury]
birthday girl f(x), amber/krystal
raise infinite, woohyun/sunggyu
some like it hot exo, kai/chanyeol [warning: harm]
untitled exo, chanyeol/d.o.
seeking a friend at the end ( Read more... )
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The soft classical music is playing on the background. The lights from the chandelier gave the room a dim effect. Everyone was either eating silently or dancing to the sweet music, holding each other’s hands, never getting tired. Everyone was like in their own fairytale. But no twelve o’ clock could stop them from this moment.
“Kai oppa, can we da-“
“No.”
My eyes drifted from my still full plate to the busy room. I easily spotted Kyungsoo from the crowd.
There he was dancing with Baekhyun, his date. They were dancing effortlessly. His hands seemed to fit his perfectly. His brown orbs complement his shining black eyes. They seem to go well. They seem to look as if they were really made for each other.
As they swayed through the music, I watched them from a distant corner.
It made me realize a very painful fact.
That there is no way to forget him.
And how could I never ever have him.
If I was Baekhyun, I will treat her like a king. The king of my whole world. I will let him rule everything. I will let him be my sun, everything revolves around him. I will treasure him like he is a very precious gem stone. No one can hurt him. No one can shatter his dreams. And if someone does something bad to him, that person should get prepared to be banished.
My heart was trained to be just an organ that pumped blood. And supply it everywhere just for me to function through days. There should be no emotion hidden there.
Why me? Why? Why did I have to have a heart that actually worked? And why him?
Why did he have to be the one I secretly yearned for?
It was a battle that raged in my mind everyday. It was an ugly battle of mind over heart, and my heart seemed to be winning.
This is so foolish for me to think about him at all! This is so stupid of me to blindly give my heart to a man that neither wanted it nor was, in other people’s view, worthy of it.
No. Kyungsoo is not worthy of me?
Impossible.
He was worthy of anyone. Kyungsoo can even be the very definition of perfect. He is one of the top in class. He is very talented; he can sing high notes with minimal effort. He is also not bad at dancing. He is kind. He is everything that I wanted.
It is me who wasn’t worthy of him.
Absent-mindedly, I brushed my hand against the still quite painful bruise he gave me when got so pissed off with all the insults I said against him and his boyfriend.
After all, what kind of man goes around insulting the man he is in love with?
That’s me. Kai.
Looking back now, I realized that ever since I met her, I have always hurt him. Insulted him. Made him cry a lot of times over the littlest of things. Pulled pranks.
How can I be so insensitive?
It is my entire fault that he loathes me.
I am the person who gives me this suffering and pain I am feeling.
Not her.
I was the person who makes him mad at me and loath me.
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