post #11

[seoulfulness]

Fics ( #10)

This post is a few minutes into Monday night by KST. Have fun! :)

Untitled YG/SM, G-Dragon/BoA
The New Kid f(x), Sungjong, Luna, Amber
R.I.P 2PM, Chansung/Junsu
Untitled Replay1997, Junhee/Yunjae
Granted Brown Eyed Girls, Miryo/Narsha
Untitled EXO, Kai/Luhan
Stuck Here Forever Block B, Jaehyo/Taeil, Taeil/P.O
He Hurts Big Bang/2NE1,

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Re: exo, kai centric (untitled, 2/2)

[anonymous]

There is no one to blame but yourself.

Deep down, he knows he'll never make it in. He is too short, too fat, too ugly, all these words branded onto his skin.

The dance is in your bones, and your vocals can be worked on. This is what the talent scout, Suho, tells him after his audition. Suho is tall and good-looking, and he aims a breathtaking smile at Jongin, even as he rejects him. It's a pity that this is where your journey ends.

Jongin looks away from him, his mind already thinking of the next audition, his next chance to prove himself before it's too late. He's not yet ready to give up. Not yet.

How far are you willing to go? Suho asks.

Jongin is suddenly alert. He meet Suho's gaze. Suho's eyes are perfectly almond-shaped.

What are you willing to do? Suho asks, the smile never leaving his face.

Anything, Jongin says, his heart pounding in his ears. I'll do anything.

It only takes 54 operations to turn Jongin into Kai, 54 operations to catapult him into stardom.

You made yourself into this.

"Jongin!" Kyungsoo is shaking him, and Kai blinks, blinks again, the fight going out of him abruptly. His hand falls from his throat. "Let me see."

Kai murmurs something under his breath. He is staring at himself in the mirror; Kyungsoo's hunched over figure is covering half of his reflection.

Kyungsoo ignores him, too busy examining his throat with a critical eye. "You've got red marks all over your skin." He hesitates and looks into Kai's eyes. Blankness stares back at him. "Nothing Baekhyun's makeup can't fix," he says softly.

"Yes," Baekhyun says, hurriedly approaching Kai with a foundation brush. "Yes, I'll just..." His voice trails off as he finally gets a good look at Kai's neck. There's a big blotch of wrinkled red skin on Kai's throat, as if his flesh has fallen off and revealed what's underneath. Baekhyun's hand shakes.

Kyungsoo puts a firm hand on Baekhyun's shoulder, and Baekhyun starts working.

"We'll go to the center later, Jongin," Kyungsoo whispers in Kai's ear. "For your maintenance. It will be all right, don't worry."

Kai's eyes clear, his back straightens, and he turns to meet Kyungsoo's gaze sharply. "It's Kai."

"Right," Kyungsoo answers, his expression heavy with pity.

Once Kyungsoo leaves, Kai returns to looking at his reflection in the mirror. His hand is tapping an uneven rhythm on the makeup table. "Make me look gorgeous, Baekhyun." He ignores the way Baekhyun's hand shakes as he replies, "You already are."

I am my own outcome, Kai tells himself, as Baekhyun continues to touch up his makeup. But if I'm going down, he thinks, looking at the disappearing blotch at his throat, if I'm going down, I'll take you all with me.

Re: exo, kai centric (untitled, 2/2)

[anonymous]

sorry anon, op here - i didn't expect this to be filled so i didn't check for a while so imagine my shock when it was, lol. thank you for this! it's just as disturbing as i needed and i love the reactions of the others, how they try to make it better when nothing really can? baekhyun part really made me ache for the whole thing and kai was exactly how i'd pictured.

Re: exo, kai centric (untitled, 2/2)

[anonymous]

really glad you liked it :) this is actually my first exo fic ever, but i'd just finished reading helter skelter when i saw this and couldn't resist.