Post #8.

[seoulfulness]

Apologies once again for posting early; I won't have internet access tonight, and wanted to make sure that I had ample time to post this part.

Fics ( #7)

Untitled (NU'EST, Aron/Minhyun)
Untitled (EXO-K/Infinite, Kai/Sungyeol)
A Little Too Far (B2ST, Dongwoon/Doojoon)
You've Got a Friend (ZE:A, Kevin/Taehun + Hyungshik/Kevin)
Untitled (Super Junior

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All Alone Again, Super Junior M, Kyuhyun/Zhou Mi (1/2)

[anonymous]

When he goes back to China for a vacation, a real one, a whole two months, the people who've known and loved Zhou Mi for ages tell him he looks different. More tired, they say, than when he was promoting, more melancholy, even, than the time when he had more anti-fans than fans. Why?, they all ask him, what's wrong?

He smiles and he knows they know he's faking it but says, anyway, it's nothing, really, I've just been busy. You might not see me on TV all the time but I've been busy.

He stays in China for those two months, mostly in Beijing, though he takes a few trips out to Wuhan and Taiwan to visit friends. He doesn't tell a single one the truth, even though they keep asking him why. He thinks they all manage to figure it out, themselves, sooner or later, just from the way he hesitates, the way he lies. They all knew, or suspected, what had been going on at some point in time, and he's certain there's a reason none of them ever, ever mention anything about it.

Zhou Mi, when he's alone at night, when he's walking the streets of Beijing, arms covered in shopping bags, coffee in hand, notebook in his pocket, when he's reading a book on the couch in his parents' home, when he's dancing in a small club where no one knows his name, misses Kyuhyun.

They never really got together, they would always joke to each other. They just sort of ended up that way, two acquaintances wending their way into each other's hearts and beds. They never really broke up, either, and Zhou Mi thinks it's fitting. Kyuhyun is doing what Kyuhyun has always wanted to do: he is singing, and performing, and he is as brilliant at it as he ever was, as everyone's always expected him to be. Zhou Mi isn't sure what he's doing. He's making the best of things, as he's gotten accustomed to doing, using his spare time to compose songs he hopes will see the light of day, practicing piano, practicing English. He writes lyrics for Chinese remakes, features on the occasional song, has a television appearance every once in a while, does a lot of translating for the handful of new Chinese trainees in the company. He does it all alone.

He misses the days when he had Kyuhyun beside him while he was doing anything and everything, even if Kyuhyun's presence was never exactly comforting. He misses Kyuhyun's grumbling and griping about shopping (and the way he'd always smile, a little, when he looked down at the pictures he took of Zhou Mi posing in his newest acquisitions, and Zhou Mi would ask him why he looked like that and he'd shake his head and say no reason but not stop smiling, not really, not ever), misses the jabs in his side when he got too silly or too stupid or too obvious, misses the fights they would have, even, when they would yell and yell and yell, about stupid things, like the time Kyuhyun spilled coffee all over his bag and didn't tell him, and much less stupid things, like the time Zhou Mi got drunk when they went clubbing and couldn't keep his hands off Kyuhyun in public, kissed him and whispered dirty things too him and almost got them caught. He misses the way the worst of those fights would stab at him, would make him want to say "fuck you, Kyuhyun, and fuck this" and walk out of the room and keep walking and walking and maybe only come back when Henry (he always imagines it would be Henry, or maybe Donghae, or, a longer time ago, Han Geng) called him, hours later.

He misses Kyuhyun, misses the way he'd make him feel every emotion so strongly he never quite knew how to explain them, if they could even be explained. He has no idea if Kyuhyun feels the same (if he ever did, though Zhou Mi knows he must have, must have).