“KIM JONGDAEEE! I LOVE YOUUUU!” same gurl same chenese buddies forever
He doesn’t even register that he’s crying until Lu Han reaches out and squeezes his hand and he feels the tears sliding down his cheeks each time he blinks. ALL THE TEARS
me: basically i hate beth for sad xingdae I'M ONLY USED TO HAPPY XINGDAE STOP THIS HEARTACHE KUDASAI
but other than that -- i think it was really well-written! i like your writing style, it's concise and to the point, and some things you write make it so glaringly obvious that i just sat there thinking, "wow this is true what is the meaning of life"
/coughs
i like how the xingdae wasn't too romantic, just enough for you to go awww but also break down because they were so close, so close to being together and you really could feel their love for each other but well, i guess it's fate that has separated them /wipes tears
one more thing -- i think the jongdae in this fic is actually really similar to me in some aspects? his reason for standing up on stage is to make others happy and that's kind of like??? the whole goal of my life??? i don't know hmmm but to me it's a really fatal flaw because it's to the point where i make other happy so much that i sacrifice that piece of happiness from myself, and i think you displayed it sort of well here (jongdae still insisting on touring, even to the end he died on a uh happy note. or maybe not) so jongdae was relatable to me in a way!
also, he died of the one thing that gave him life wow life is so horribly ironic isn't it throat cancer WAYLT
WHY DIDN'T JONGDAE GET TO VEGAS
i'm not that good at commenting so yeah this is it i hope you could feel me on the spiritual level BYE
rissa you are too cute tho pls (it was probably you screaming that)
thank you so much though ;;; and lmao I didn't know I would make you contemplate existence but I'm guessing you're referring to stuff jongdae says about his career and stuff? or about approaches to life and etc? heh i'm glad i was able to pull that dynamic off though! i wanted something a little more subtle because of the nature of the au and etc, because if i had made it a lot more...romantic than stuff would end up a bit cliche? i felt? so yeah :-P
interesting! because i've actually felt that way about being around other people and making them happy too lolol yeah i thought it was a good theme to be explored? like, i knew i just had to include something about being a celebrity for this because that lifestyle is so /complex/ its always fascinated me lolol
LIFE IS SADLY IRONIC (and my initial idea was to actually have him collapse after vegas but too uh dramatic i guess)
“KIM JONGDAEEE! I LOVE YOUUUU!” same gurl same chenese buddies forever
He doesn’t even register that he’s crying until Lu Han reaches out and squeezes his hand and he feels the tears sliding down his cheeks each time he blinks. ALL THE TEARS
me: basically i hate beth for sad xingdae I'M ONLY USED TO HAPPY XINGDAE STOP THIS HEARTACHE KUDASAI
but other than that -- i think it was really well-written! i like your writing style, it's concise and to the point, and some things you write make it so glaringly obvious that i just sat there thinking, "wow this is true what is the meaning of life"
/coughs
i like how the xingdae wasn't too romantic, just enough for you to go awww but also break down because they were so close, so close to being together and you really could feel their love for each other but well, i guess it's fate that has separated them /wipes tears
one more thing -- i think the jongdae in this fic is actually really similar to me in some aspects? his reason for standing up on stage is to make others happy and that's kind of like??? the whole goal of my life??? i don't know hmmm but to me it's a really fatal flaw because it's to the point where i make other happy so much that i sacrifice that piece of happiness from myself, and i think you displayed it sort of well here (jongdae still insisting on touring, even to the end he died on a uh happy note. or maybe not) so jongdae was relatable to me in a way!
also, he died of the one thing that gave him life wow life is so horribly ironic isn't it throat cancer WAYLT
WHY DIDN'T JONGDAE GET TO VEGAS
i'm not that good at commenting so yeah this is it i hope you could feel me on the spiritual level BYE
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(it was probably you screaming that)
thank you so much though ;;; and lmao I didn't know I would make you contemplate existence but I'm guessing you're referring to stuff jongdae says about his career and stuff? or about approaches to life and etc?
heh i'm glad i was able to pull that dynamic off though! i wanted something a little more subtle because of the nature of the au and etc, because if i had made it a lot more...romantic than stuff would end up a bit cliche? i felt? so yeah :-P
interesting! because i've actually felt that way about being around other people and making them happy too lolol yeah i thought it was a good theme to be explored? like, i knew i just had to include something about being a celebrity for this because that lifestyle is so /complex/ its always fascinated me lolol
LIFE IS SADLY IRONIC (and my initial idea was to actually have him collapse after vegas but too uh dramatic i guess)
I AM VERY HAPPY WITH YOUR COMMENT ilu <3
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