is this cat really so lucky? share your umbrella with me...

[senyen]

i...can't believe how heavy this is
my life has become virtual
i sit here
and i stare at still images of YOU

old and frozen
a blip in the spectrum
a dot on a linear time line of all your lives
i wasn't there to see it happen...
i can only pretend and fantacize about what it was like

/\/\/\/\/\/\/\/\/\/\/\/\/\/\/\/\/\/\/\/\/\/\/\/\/\/\/\/\/\/\/\/\/\
as each day goes by i feel like the distances grow
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and W..I..D..E..R..

and it all goes on without my knowledge
without anything stopping to see if i noticed...
i do not like feeling this way

so empty and shrivelled and...lonely
and, dare i say? forgotton
where are all of you?

when i clean the kitchen...
-do you see?
when i ride the bus in the morning...
-are you going somewhere without me?
when i make the bed...
-are you dreaming?
when i sit here by myself typing to a void...
-are you remembering me?

where am i?
i am alone in this apartment with a thirst for something like water but thicker...

.
.
come find me
remember me when you see something you like
try to remember that i love you
i am living and i am me and i have myself

but sometimes i need a little bit more...