A post from school

[sentimentalsway]

I should be working on a rough draft of an essay that I didn't do last night, and maybe I will actually get it done before I have class, but somehow I doubt it.  This is the first time I have been at school for the morning announcements since the first week of this year, but there's no TV in the writing center, so I can't watch them anyway.  They

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[doublecee]

I understand how you feel about envying someones intellect in the poetry realm, but my envy currently lies in the art world. I see other glass artists making such beautiful and interesting things, and then I see how far I have to go until I get to their level of expertise and whatnot (if I get there at all). Then Ill think about the design abilities that I feel that I lack in order to make these amazing things, and I end up being afraid that when I finally DO have the ability to produce complex and interesting glass art that I wont be able to due to the limitations of my mind. But then I will look to other artist's work and I'll try to draw ideas from it. Then the only problem is the fact that when I think of my good ideas, i am driving, and I cant draw when I am going down 270, lol. oh well.

My poetry... well... I dont think I'll ever want to read it again, lol. In my creative writing class I seemed to do better with short stories, but even then... meh. Anyway, I guess what I want to say is that in the last year and a half or so that I have known you, youve always struck me as a very intelligent and creative person, so I can be sure that you are just as creative as this girl, and even if you dont feel like yours is that good, you will soon be in college, moving towards even better work, so I suppose dont worry too much about it. And besides, I think its true that we scrutinize our own work much more than the harshest peer or critic ever would, and that fact keeps us working harder, moving towards that "perfect" goal, which noone ever gets to, I bet. also, you are young too ;-) and believe it or not, youll get older and get out of college and think back about how young you really were at 17 and think you were silly to feel old at that age. Thats how I feel these days. but I figure that you probably dont want to hear lame 20-something adult crap like that anyway, so feel free to disregard, haha. :-)

If you dont mind letting me see it, I would be interested to read your work sometime. I am too afraid to share anything I have written myself with you, since you would probably think it was awful, and THEN what would you think of me! haha, but if you want to see any of my art, I wouldnt mind sharing with you in return. So, whatever. I figure I would post something to you since I do read your journal, and you post on mine, and I always want to say something to you on yours, but I never know what. I hope this doesnt seem like a big ol rambling reply here, I just wanted to let you know that I understand.

as for the rest, I agree with you on the "what the hell is up with jack?!" subject, but I have to admit that if i had to choose, then I would rather be stuck in a room with him than the ferret boy who lights random driveway fires (ferret-like since he steals things, as ferrets do, or so I am told) atleast jack isnt a security/accident risk, or is he? ha. Of course having neither of them around and hanging out with you is fine with me, and preferred. Besides, before I met you, I always heard good things about you, and how you were Ben's protege and such, as well as how well you guys get along, which is great to see, even though it makes me wish my younger brother was still alive though, but I have always wished for that :-P

just as the person above, i am being long-winded! moreso due to tiredness instead of happy. damn.

[sentimentalsway]

Oh, I know I am young yet.. But I don't feel I'll ever look back on these years and think, "wow, I was so young," because I don't do that now with my childhood. I never really feel like I am any older than I used to be, just that I've had different experiences and that my life has changed in some ways. I guess college may change that, but it may not.. And I think anyone who's lost a sibling often wishes they could have them back or that they were still living. I'm glad to hear that you heard good things about me from Ben. I'm not sure I'm anyone's protege, but I guess that would be cool (unless I'm somebody's beat up ol' mazda).
I'll let you read something sometime. I can't say when or where, mostly because I don't always keep it with me these days, but I will.