the sad girl inside.
Its been a long time since i posted in my little old lj, but I dont know maybe its time i start posting again, I had a doctors apointment today, mum talked me into going...by the end of the apt I was diagnosed with severe Post natal depression and was put on anti depressants. I dont know weather to laugh or cry at the moment...its all a bit much for me to take in, I guess I now know why ive been so sad and so bleak in my outlook on everything.
Ive kept a paper journal for 13 years now, and I stopped for about 6 months, some thing thats never happened to me...so today I picked up a journal thats been waiting to be written in and started a few pages, maybe I will keep writing in it who knows. Im also trying to scrapbook again after years or not touching it, doing the things that make me happy that make the old parts of me feel a bit lighter, because ive been ignoring that side of me pretty much since eli was born. Ive watched the artist in me die a little each day which is such a sad mess. Maybe I will get better with the medication and things wont seem so hard.
only a small post...baby steps for me to get back in the habbit of writing again.
84 days till hubby is home.
Ive kept a paper journal for 13 years now, and I stopped for about 6 months, some thing thats never happened to me...so today I picked up a journal thats been waiting to be written in and started a few pages, maybe I will keep writing in it who knows. Im also trying to scrapbook again after years or not touching it, doing the things that make me happy that make the old parts of me feel a bit lighter, because ive been ignoring that side of me pretty much since eli was born. Ive watched the artist in me die a little each day which is such a sad mess. Maybe I will get better with the medication and things wont seem so hard.
only a small post...baby steps for me to get back in the habbit of writing again.
84 days till hubby is home.