things of that nature
hello, how is every feeling?, she said with a sneer that oozed with contempt. i can't help but narrate myself. so as everyone doesn't know i've just moved to georgia, the 3rd ring of hell. ok, perhaps i exaggerate a little....but really it is as hot as fuck in an oven here. just as sweaty. i feel a fool somewhat for my moving here. what the hell was i thinking? but i needed to leave my home and what was familiar. (it helps that college is here as well) i think that change is good and necessary. i've started to befriend people here, making my existence, not so bad. i find myself missing people that were in my life. their quirks, their sick senses of humour, but mostly the fact that these people accepted and loved me for all my harshness and strange demeanours. i hope that i will always know certain people, even if they don't seem so eager to know me. i understand wanting to cut off your past life to start affresh, but some people don't affect your evolution and should be allowed to remain close to you. ah, well. i think often about this boy that i love up north....there are no words to describe the passion that i so desperately feel for him. i miss him so much, and i don't know that the paths each of us take in life will bring us close together again. maybe our love will. it seems to transcend above all else, i am grateful for him, and ever shall be. i worry a lot here and i worry that it may age my face. how superficial of me! but i would not deny the importance i hold in my appearance. i care greatly about the condition of my skin and body like-wise. i worry about money. i hate and desire it. isn't that our complex? i need so much of it, and so quickly. i know that everything will be okay, my luck runs that way. but the climb is steep and large boulders block my path. ah, well. i am athletic, i will climb over them , no matter how wearied my body. i think i'm going to do some mental masturbation online, then sleeeeeeppppp. how i love sleep. chao.