Mothers day....

May 13, 2007 18:31

Okay mothers day so far for me has sucked...I mean it was a all right start off...Boyfriend made breakfast I got calls and stuff like that. Then i have a few contractions off and on nothing enough to make me go to the hospital for. Anyways now i have a head ache and I am pissed of and not really sure why. So far two people have said they can't make it to my babyshower and no invitations and stuff have been passed out or to my knowledge everyone keeps asking me shit like i am supposed to fucking know. I am really not wanting to go to my babyshower because i feel like it's gonna be a fuck disaster which i pray to god it's not. I would really love if everything went according to plan...right now i am just ready to curl up in a pregnant ball and cry and eat ice cream(pregnant women cliche)lol. It's just right now i feel crappy and i am in a pissy mood. I thought mothers day was supposed to make you feel good....I think maybe next year everything will be better. I pray next year will be better. I went to go visit my cousins grave and I thought has anyone besides me visit her from time to time. I mean i do it outta of respect. She was a women I respected and her voice as oh so beautiful she wasn't about church politics she was what i would call a real lady. Very few in this day in age in the church world. Anyways not to go off track...she died when she was seven months pregnant...all though they saved her baby she was brain dead and there was nothing more that they could do for her besides letting her go. I am naming my daughter after her because of the women she was...from what i was told and from what i experianced in her. Anyways i am going off on a tangent...anyways I thought i would update people on my ever so loving life.lol

I am now currently thirty seven weeks pregnant and getting bitter and madder as the days go on...just wishing my water would break or i go into labor.I really don't think i can make it to forty weeks...in all honesty i don't wanna make it to forty weeks i want this shit to be over fa real.
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