im avoiding that i have to learn my stuff to pass my 20hrs of exams (which are a mere month away)

[sensethesarcasm]

its been so calm this past week with most people out of the house. its stayed tidy, theres been little stress and when there is shouting ive been able to avoid it. but everyone came back today and before they even stepped into the house i could hear them arguing. lots of family came round (which was fine) and few of them really seem capable of clearing up after themselves. my sister seems to turn into an enthusiastic attention seeking whiny annoyance and i just feel - defeated. not amused. its like ive tried to turn myself off. like ive had a long hard day working right from the moment they come in. and i was kind of looking forward to seeing them again.

term started today. i didnt go in because they called from the airport a few hours before i was due to leave and told me that they needed me to be there to let them in. i was worried about them while they were gone. they seemed to enjoy themselves despite the stress and hecticness of their trip.

this all sounds so bland. im on autopilot (which means im doing nothing). i put in the first load of laundry ive done in months. i cant believe its been so long. i cant believe i have so many clothes that ive lasted this long. it helps that i havent been doing anything so nothing really has been getting dirty.

i should go tidy my room. hopefully this time when i say that ill actually get some of it done.