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[sensesxspiral]

I hate that I have attractive friends.
I hate that I don't have an ugly friend.
I hate that I feel like the ugly one.
I hate that I'm the one that just follows.
I hate that I don't really have a unique personality.
I hate that I'm not pretty enough on the outside.

I love my friends.
I love how my job is filled with interesting people.
I love how the career I'm pursuing is something I'll love.
I love how sometimes I can forget about all of my stupid teenage problems.
I love how when I look to the future, I look happy.

I wish I can look past everything and love myself.
I wish I could look past everything and see that I'm an attractive person.
I wish I could find someone that could love me and my imperfections.

I miss being a little girl.
I miss not caring.
I miss having no worries.
I miss being happy.