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I don't know what to do.
My heart breaks a little bit each day.
It's moved from falling in the bathroom,
to pnemonia,
to cancer.
Cancer is the ugliest word I know.
I wouldn't wish this upon anyone but it has entered my life twice in the past 2 years.
I'm always teary-eyed.
But I haven't had a good cry yet.
I can't.
It's almost like I've desensitized myself.
But I know I haven't.
The tears will flow soon enough.
Just not today.
She says she'll have a month more to live.
Ellen's coming from Alabama sometime in the next 2 weeks.
Meiko and Kazuko are coming from Japan sometime in the next 2 weeks.
I think this is serious this time.
I can't stand the vacant look in her eyes.
I can't bare to talk to her and never getting a response.
She's resorting to Japanese mostly.
Meaning that our communication skills are getting weaker and weaker.
I don't know what to do with myself.
My heart breaks a little bit each day.
It's moved from falling in the bathroom,
to pnemonia,
to cancer.
Cancer is the ugliest word I know.
I wouldn't wish this upon anyone but it has entered my life twice in the past 2 years.
I'm always teary-eyed.
But I haven't had a good cry yet.
I can't.
It's almost like I've desensitized myself.
But I know I haven't.
The tears will flow soon enough.
Just not today.
She says she'll have a month more to live.
Ellen's coming from Alabama sometime in the next 2 weeks.
Meiko and Kazuko are coming from Japan sometime in the next 2 weeks.
I think this is serious this time.
I can't stand the vacant look in her eyes.
I can't bare to talk to her and never getting a response.
She's resorting to Japanese mostly.
Meaning that our communication skills are getting weaker and weaker.
I don't know what to do with myself.