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[sensesxspiral]

i hate how i cant be happy anymore.
i hate how im on the verge of tears everyday.
i hate that im in pain.
i hate that im mentally about to break down.
physically about to faint.
i hate how i hate everyone.

all i want is to be happy again.
i want to smile for real for once.
i want to not be the downer every fucking day.
i want everything to go back to happy.
i want friends.
i want no worries.
i want motivation.

i want the world to stop.
i want to start over again.
id do so many things differently.
i want to not be cynical anymore..

i want to give up.

so when are we getting that apartment in jersey?