Aaron

[senseryoverlode]

why did you have to go and bring this down on me. Why did we have to see? Why couldnt you just walk away? I cant take this today. Why did you have to be there looking with your hallow stair? This is a complete mess my thoughts wont let me away from this. I cant even say I hate you because you know thats not true. Here I am sitting all alone in my confort zone. I cant give you this power and build your finest hour. Causing pain to stoke your fire. Well this is me blowing it out, getting rid of all my doubt. Comatose an overdose of drenching fear. My end is near. A new beguinning of glory and winning, my salvation into this lonly nation. A glorified creation. it all beguins with me. My head is full of slides like ocean tides comming a going. Too mutch baggage stowing in my head compartments. What is this, a test? Are we playing 20 questions? Then I have one for you. Who do you think you are? I have a painful scar, one that no one can see but you and me. I cant let go the pain of suffocation im being drown in the under toe, a river of tears going and flowing. A sinking boat rowing and rowing. This has got to stop and I will come out on top. For all I care you can be lost out there. I wish this was true but anyone could see right though my feeble lie. because i have to find the beat. You instill fear when you come near. Why? Im sick of feeling nauseous. I wish you would just leave. I want to believe this is all a dream. I had to leave today today i had to get away.

yah umn...of corse youll be the only one to understand but who cares. still youll get it and that im haveing a really hard time but i wanted you to know i am getting better
i love that you
Susan lynn