Step Sixty

[senseiseiichi]

...I hate this.

Is this what I am, and what I've become? Some jealous, evil creature? Or have I been a monster all along?

I want him. I love him. Yet he's found someone else to hold and protect, so have I. Yet I can't...I can't give myself, not completely. And that's not any sort of stupid sexual metaphor, I just can't.

...No matter what I decide,

Comments

[lonewolf_sanada]

Play with me.

[senseiseiichi]

No.

Private to Seiichi

[lonewolf_sanada]

And I thought we decided to stay friends.

Private to Sanada

[senseiseiichi]

I decided against it. Bye.

Re: Private to Seiichi

[lonewolf_sanada]

...

Why are you so adamant to tear us all apart? We can work this out.

Just let somebody try already!

Private to Sanada

[senseiseiichi]

You've made your decision. What's in a rock can't be changed.

There's nothing to try.

Re: Private to Seiichi

[lonewolf_sanada]

...

And you don't believe in us anymore?

You're the one who doesn't want to try.

Private to Sanada

[senseiseiichi]

There is no us, remember? You've decided that.

I've realized that I am indeed completely alone.

Re: Private to Seiichi

[lonewolf_sanada]

What's etched in stone cannot be changed.

You decided that long before Renji and I arrived.

You are not, you refuse to let us in. How the hell can we help at all?

Private to Sanada-san

[senseiseiichi]

And I would have left in a heartbeat.

You will heal.

And I believe Mukahi-san is calling you.

Re: Private to SEIICHI

[lonewolf_sanada]

Sanada-san is not going to push me or Renji away. He's worried sick now.

Don't say useless things like these. We will all heal with time.

Let Kawamura help.

And don't do that to Gakuto, it's not fair.

Private to Sanada-san

[senseiseiichi]

Leave me alone!