Step Fifty-Six
After a week of my new schedule, I think I can successfully say that I am exhausted. Wow. It's going to be an interesting semester, at least. I love the classes, I love the professors, I'm just going to collapse underneath all of the work.
My concern is Drawing 2. Sensei wants us to concentrate on figure studies, not a problem.
Except that the biggest project is a self-study. I've never done a figure study on myself, and there's reason for it. I'm thin as a rail and scarred up enough to double as a road map. The mirror has become an enemy. I don't want to drop the class, but...hmm. Perhaps I'll change professors.
It's my first time as a mentor for the spring counseling program, since I was a program participant last year. I've already heard that the rumors are flying about me being scary and merciless. Why am I not surprised?
The weekend was nice, and I love Takashi's new kittens. They're so adorably fuzzy and tiny!
Takashi, Gakuto, Sen, Inui, Eishirou: Since you five are the ones who have an idea of what's going on with my health, I felt like giving you a heads-up.
Yes, I have been rediagnosed with CIDP. The good news is that I'm going to be participating in a clinical trial for a new medication that's supposed to severely reduce the risk of a real relapse. Bad news is that while we did discover why I'm losing weight, I have to be weaned off of the medication. In other words, it has to slow down before it stops and I start regaining. So bear with me on this. I have not officially relapsed, even though I'm still going to look like walking death for a few weeks.
Thanks for keeping all of this private, guys. I really appreciate it.
Takashi: Thank you again for the weekend. Your company is wonderful, and I'm looking forward to more evenings like this.
Oh...and happy one-month anniversary, my dear.
Private:
So Renji's here, too. At least he has enough restraint not to pull a Sanada and demand re-entrance into every aspect of my personal life. Perhaps I'll let both of them in again one day. But...not yet. It's an odd feeling, not being able to trust those who were my closest friends.
Renji...I haven't seen him in ages. I wonder how he's changed, and what may have stayed the same.
My concern is Drawing 2. Sensei wants us to concentrate on figure studies, not a problem.
Except that the biggest project is a self-study. I've never done a figure study on myself, and there's reason for it. I'm thin as a rail and scarred up enough to double as a road map. The mirror has become an enemy. I don't want to drop the class, but...hmm. Perhaps I'll change professors.
It's my first time as a mentor for the spring counseling program, since I was a program participant last year. I've already heard that the rumors are flying about me being scary and merciless. Why am I not surprised?
The weekend was nice, and I love Takashi's new kittens. They're so adorably fuzzy and tiny!
Takashi, Gakuto, Sen, Inui, Eishirou: Since you five are the ones who have an idea of what's going on with my health, I felt like giving you a heads-up.
Yes, I have been rediagnosed with CIDP. The good news is that I'm going to be participating in a clinical trial for a new medication that's supposed to severely reduce the risk of a real relapse. Bad news is that while we did discover why I'm losing weight, I have to be weaned off of the medication. In other words, it has to slow down before it stops and I start regaining. So bear with me on this. I have not officially relapsed, even though I'm still going to look like walking death for a few weeks.
Thanks for keeping all of this private, guys. I really appreciate it.
Takashi: Thank you again for the weekend. Your company is wonderful, and I'm looking forward to more evenings like this.
Oh...and happy one-month anniversary, my dear.
Private:
So Renji's here, too. At least he has enough restraint not to pull a Sanada and demand re-entrance into every aspect of my personal life. Perhaps I'll let both of them in again one day. But...not yet. It's an odd feeling, not being able to trust those who were my closest friends.
Renji...I haven't seen him in ages. I wonder how he's changed, and what may have stayed the same.