Step Forty-Four
....I believe a large chunk of myself has been ripped out, and I'm not quite sure why.
It's been happening more and more recently that I simply curl under my blankets and, well...just cry until my eyes run out of tears.
It frightens me, and at the same time, it's cleansing.
I just...I wish I could have touched him, held him, told him I loved him one last time...
Abandonment sucks more than being sick.
If I keep smiling, keep the shell up, I will be strong. You will NOT crack, Yukimura Seiichi! You've defeated countless opponents, you've stared death in the face, and you have overcome it.
Just as you will overcome this.
Keep smiling. You will not falter. You will find an explanation as to why you're having trouble walking that does not involve "forgetting due to being too depressed."
You will not fail. Failing is not an option.
If you cry again, you will cry alone.
My tea's gone cold I'm wondering why I..
got out of bed at all
The morning rain clouds up my window..
and I can't see at all
And even if I could it'll all be gray,
but your picture on my wall
It reminds me, that it's not so bad,
it's not so bad..
Oh, I can't believe this! I sprained my ankle during practice with Sen's girls, and now I'm on crutches for a week. =( Not fun, not fun. I'd try to play tennis, but I know Banji-sensei won't let me on the court. Heh, I could hobble after the ball. That...would be kind of funny.
I think I'm just going to curl up in bed and draw. That sounds like a plan.