Breathless
Idk why but rn I'm just so out of it. 0o Like... I have no will to study. Absolutely nothing. Zero. There's so much things to do and so many concepts to review but what am I doing at this moment???
Nothing.
It's as if I... lost my way?? ^^"""""
Feeling lonely.
Confused.
Unmotivated.
Sad.
Like some part of "life" has been sucked out of me. 0o
Like the world is falling apart.
...
Nothing "bad" happened and I'm not pms'ing... Where in the world did this emo-ness come from? Go away you yucky ugly monster. = =
I need to pull myself back together fast. I need to be productive.
To-do list:
- Go to luncheon tomorrow for EALC department. Free food will hopefully cheer me up.
- Go to this beauty magazine thingy tomorrow afternoon. Something social will hopefully cheer me up.
- Watch all those darn Miyazaki movies I "missed" for my decal final this thursday. Prepare a "presentation." Honestly I'm fascinated by Miyazaki's work, but atm... I hate the fact that I "have to" watch this stuff.
- Study for ochem. I seriously NEED to study.
- Plan what classes I'm gonna take for summer. Check w/ L&S ppl.
....
Usu I can "cheer" myself up w/ my optimistic personality and thoughts. How come it's not working now?
Also... How come I feel like a complete failure even though I didn't "fail" anything yet? Perhaps I think I will fail the ochem test??
Nothing.
It's as if I... lost my way?? ^^"""""
Feeling lonely.
Confused.
Unmotivated.
Sad.
Like some part of "life" has been sucked out of me. 0o
Like the world is falling apart.
...
Nothing "bad" happened and I'm not pms'ing... Where in the world did this emo-ness come from? Go away you yucky ugly monster. = =
I need to pull myself back together fast. I need to be productive.
To-do list:
- Go to luncheon tomorrow for EALC department. Free food will hopefully cheer me up.
- Go to this beauty magazine thingy tomorrow afternoon. Something social will hopefully cheer me up.
- Watch all those darn Miyazaki movies I "missed" for my decal final this thursday. Prepare a "presentation." Honestly I'm fascinated by Miyazaki's work, but atm... I hate the fact that I "have to" watch this stuff.
- Study for ochem. I seriously NEED to study.
- Plan what classes I'm gonna take for summer. Check w/ L&S ppl.
....
Usu I can "cheer" myself up w/ my optimistic personality and thoughts. How come it's not working now?
Also... How come I feel like a complete failure even though I didn't "fail" anything yet? Perhaps I think I will fail the ochem test??