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so... today was... long. bad. tiring, even with nine hours of sleep under my belt; thank goodness I got that much. I've just been... idk. It's been a tiring day. I've cried and nearly started crying again several times. Teared up in class and on the subway. This is why my parents don't want to tell me bad shit like this. I don't take it well.
I have a hard time even thinking of going home and not... having Moxie there. I keep talking about her in present tense. My crazy, energetic girl just - not being, any more? It's not possible. I just... I wish I could have picked her up and cuddled her one more time. Or given her treats and talked to her.
The one bright point in all of this - marginally bright point - is at least she can't suffer anymore. And when I think of her being slowly stripped down, starving, not drinking, it makes me sick to think of how she might've suffered.
I can't think of it too much or talk about her without starting to cry again. Fuck.
Ate too much today. Just wanted... to not think about it. Fucking exhausting. My head hurts and I think I might be getting sick and I can't - rest enough. In the midst of it all, I kind of just want to go home.
Meme.
ONE. How do you feel right now?
TWO. What's your favorite pastime?
THREE. Do you consider yourself a strange person?
FOUR. What's your main fandom?
FIVE. OTP?
Um...
SIX. How do you describe yourself?
SEVEN. What's your favorite icon to use besides your default?
EIGHT. Do you have an icon of your future husband/wife?
...nnnnnot... really...
NINE. Do you have a WTF icon?
TEN. How do you feel towards love?
ELEVEN. Saddest icon?
TWELVE. Happiest icon?
THIRTEEN. Crackiest icon?
I have a hard time even thinking of going home and not... having Moxie there. I keep talking about her in present tense. My crazy, energetic girl just - not being, any more? It's not possible. I just... I wish I could have picked her up and cuddled her one more time. Or given her treats and talked to her.
The one bright point in all of this - marginally bright point - is at least she can't suffer anymore. And when I think of her being slowly stripped down, starving, not drinking, it makes me sick to think of how she might've suffered.
I can't think of it too much or talk about her without starting to cry again. Fuck.
Ate too much today. Just wanted... to not think about it. Fucking exhausting. My head hurts and I think I might be getting sick and I can't - rest enough. In the midst of it all, I kind of just want to go home.
Meme.
ONE. How do you feel right now?
TWO. What's your favorite pastime?
THREE. Do you consider yourself a strange person?
FOUR. What's your main fandom?
FIVE. OTP?
Um...
SIX. How do you describe yourself?
SEVEN. What's your favorite icon to use besides your default?
EIGHT. Do you have an icon of your future husband/wife?
...nnnnnot... really...
NINE. Do you have a WTF icon?
TEN. How do you feel towards love?
ELEVEN. Saddest icon?
TWELVE. Happiest icon?
THIRTEEN. Crackiest icon?