I hate my job...
Well, I'm fuckin' pissed and I can't seem to let it go. Remember my post before about Charlene?
I did talk to my managers. Both Tammy (Assistant Deli Manager) and Evie (Bakery/Deli Manager). I pretty much told them everything that happened that night. I also said that if I ever have to work closing with her again (b/c we're that short-staffed) I would only do it if she works 12:30-9:30 with me... Otherwise she just slacks off and leaves me with a lot of shit to do. They listened and Evie said she would try not to schedule her as 11:30 anymore. Guess what? Susan is still sick and they scheduled Charlene in her place. >.< Evie said it was done without her knowing it. It's because Debbie had to be called in and she can't work night shift.... Fine and all, but it ticked me off.
I mentioned how irritated I was to Tammy today. I mean, it's the SAME shifts, on the SAME busy freakin' day. I didn't want a repeat of last time. In fact, things have gotten busier since it's been really hot out and I'm sure tomorrow will be worse. I was fine until Tammy said that she wanted to let me know that she had called Charlene the other day to let her know how many party trays she had, and all of a sudden Charlene was telling Tammy that the reason we were behind that Monday was because I was goofing around in the back and talking to Chris the whole time. She had been on the counter the whole night. She also said that I had said I was okay. I heard that and I just wanted to strangle her. She's lying big time and I'm getting sick of being blamed for everything. The only time I was talking to Chris about was when she was leaving and she said I should call management. I was really pissed off then, and she couldn't care less and Chris understood because it was Brian. That was it. The freakin' UC doesn't even come to clean the deli until 8/8:30 so there was no way in hell anytime she was there I was goofing off talking to him. It's bad enough that rumors go around about me and D. I don't need more rumors about me and another UC. I told Chris and now we don't even say anything to each other. We hardly said anything to each other in the first place.
When I get really mad the feeling is so overwhelming and I can't do anything about it, that instead of throwing a fit I start getting panick attacks and crying. @_@;;; It was bad too with all the customers you have to deal with, but it helped me calm down a bit. Tammy felt bad and said she shouldn't have told me because I was in a bad mood, but I told her it was ok because I could already tell that night Charlene was looking down on me for something. I told her I hated how every person I work with blames me for everything. I hated getting in trouble. She said I wasn't in trouble and that she didn't tell anyone. She just wanted me to kno what she said. But things travel. First I'm told I'm too slow. I goof off. All I did before was talk to D so that had to switch his schedule. I swear, all this suffering because they think it's my fault. >.< Thinking about it made me start crying again and she had to go back and comfort me. The good thing about it all was that Tammy said she didn't think I was slow and she knows I work hard. I had the fact that Chris also confirmed Charlene left me with a shitload of stuff to do backing me up, and Tammy said that she would trusted me a lot more than she trusted Charlene so she wold believe me first. That made me feel a lot better. I thought she and Evie thought I didn't do shit. She even said that she knew my relationship with D was special to me and all that. So I'm glad. I like Tammy. ^^;; She's a lot like my friends. She can rub you the wrong way sometimes, but when it comes down to it she understands how you feel. So yeah....
I still feel like calling in tomorrow, and if they don't let me, just quitting. I can't this anymore. I'm working overtime almost every night now, and I'm tired all the time. I feel like I could kill myself right now just to get rid of all this pain I have to endure. x_x; I'm feeling underappreciated, overworked, and I am tempted to get in a big argument with Charlene tomorrow. Stupid bitch. >.< Every knows she doesn't do her work and she leaves people with crap today. Hell, she got pissed off when she couldn't get Easter Sunday off and started drama with Susan. It's like.. ok. I'm sorry your grandson doesn't have a rare type of leukemia and has a low chance of living. Let's let Susan miss another day without her grandson and family, and deal with the fact that you need to see your husband, who you see everyday anyway. I mean, wtf. It's like the world is suppose to revolve around her because she's been with Raley's for 10 years. So what? Damn company laid you off and you're lucky they even let you come to our store. Be grateful and stop starting shit. :-/
I swear, tomorrow I'll have overtime. But I don't care. More money for me. More proof that she doesn't do shit. Let her dig her own grave.
I did talk to my managers. Both Tammy (Assistant Deli Manager) and Evie (Bakery/Deli Manager). I pretty much told them everything that happened that night. I also said that if I ever have to work closing with her again (b/c we're that short-staffed) I would only do it if she works 12:30-9:30 with me... Otherwise she just slacks off and leaves me with a lot of shit to do. They listened and Evie said she would try not to schedule her as 11:30 anymore. Guess what? Susan is still sick and they scheduled Charlene in her place. >.< Evie said it was done without her knowing it. It's because Debbie had to be called in and she can't work night shift.... Fine and all, but it ticked me off.
I mentioned how irritated I was to Tammy today. I mean, it's the SAME shifts, on the SAME busy freakin' day. I didn't want a repeat of last time. In fact, things have gotten busier since it's been really hot out and I'm sure tomorrow will be worse. I was fine until Tammy said that she wanted to let me know that she had called Charlene the other day to let her know how many party trays she had, and all of a sudden Charlene was telling Tammy that the reason we were behind that Monday was because I was goofing around in the back and talking to Chris the whole time. She had been on the counter the whole night. She also said that I had said I was okay. I heard that and I just wanted to strangle her. She's lying big time and I'm getting sick of being blamed for everything. The only time I was talking to Chris about was when she was leaving and she said I should call management. I was really pissed off then, and she couldn't care less and Chris understood because it was Brian. That was it. The freakin' UC doesn't even come to clean the deli until 8/8:30 so there was no way in hell anytime she was there I was goofing off talking to him. It's bad enough that rumors go around about me and D. I don't need more rumors about me and another UC. I told Chris and now we don't even say anything to each other. We hardly said anything to each other in the first place.
When I get really mad the feeling is so overwhelming and I can't do anything about it, that instead of throwing a fit I start getting panick attacks and crying. @_@;;; It was bad too with all the customers you have to deal with, but it helped me calm down a bit. Tammy felt bad and said she shouldn't have told me because I was in a bad mood, but I told her it was ok because I could already tell that night Charlene was looking down on me for something. I told her I hated how every person I work with blames me for everything. I hated getting in trouble. She said I wasn't in trouble and that she didn't tell anyone. She just wanted me to kno what she said. But things travel. First I'm told I'm too slow. I goof off. All I did before was talk to D so that had to switch his schedule. I swear, all this suffering because they think it's my fault. >.< Thinking about it made me start crying again and she had to go back and comfort me. The good thing about it all was that Tammy said she didn't think I was slow and she knows I work hard. I had the fact that Chris also confirmed Charlene left me with a shitload of stuff to do backing me up, and Tammy said that she would trusted me a lot more than she trusted Charlene so she wold believe me first. That made me feel a lot better. I thought she and Evie thought I didn't do shit. She even said that she knew my relationship with D was special to me and all that. So I'm glad. I like Tammy. ^^;; She's a lot like my friends. She can rub you the wrong way sometimes, but when it comes down to it she understands how you feel. So yeah....
I still feel like calling in tomorrow, and if they don't let me, just quitting. I can't this anymore. I'm working overtime almost every night now, and I'm tired all the time. I feel like I could kill myself right now just to get rid of all this pain I have to endure. x_x; I'm feeling underappreciated, overworked, and I am tempted to get in a big argument with Charlene tomorrow. Stupid bitch. >.< Every knows she doesn't do her work and she leaves people with crap today. Hell, she got pissed off when she couldn't get Easter Sunday off and started drama with Susan. It's like.. ok. I'm sorry your grandson doesn't have a rare type of leukemia and has a low chance of living. Let's let Susan miss another day without her grandson and family, and deal with the fact that you need to see your husband, who you see everyday anyway. I mean, wtf. It's like the world is suppose to revolve around her because she's been with Raley's for 10 years. So what? Damn company laid you off and you're lucky they even let you come to our store. Be grateful and stop starting shit. :-/
I swear, tomorrow I'll have overtime. But I don't care. More money for me. More proof that she doesn't do shit. Let her dig her own grave.