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my birthday is in a week.
I asked for pancakes.
My mom is getting me a used labtop which will really come in handy for school next year, I feel like I use way to much paper for notes in myth.
I'm also asking for her to donate 50$ to peta for the preservation of the baby harp seals fund and to help promote the safety of their well being agaisnt hunters to kill them with a pointed spear. i hate people.
other then that i just want to be valued and appreciated. and i want to make a difference.
yesterday when i was writing in my journal i was writing about how i need someone to ask me if im okay and if i need them and I started thinking how everyone is so consumed in their own issues to even notice anyone elses and i realised that is exactly what i am doing and i wonder how many people out there maybe need me more then i need them and that made me feel a little bit better about the fact of needing.
i dont like soccer anymore.
im dreading spring break because i will be alone with myself and i will let my thoughts consume my entire being until I drive myself absolutely insane.
i hope they work me a ton.
im doing bad in school.
a positive, hmm...i finished my local scholarship essay and turned it in today and I go to st. norbert on friday for my interview and im actually not nervous. my mom and i are getting along better.
my dad told me people would like me more if i smiled and that he has a hard time smiling and its not a bad thing to be adamant in your beliefs but theres a point where you start pushing people away and he thinks i dont have a boyfriend becasue of that. i think its just because all the boys i know suck. but maybe he's right.
damn i wanted to end with a positive, oh yea, sadie likes me now.
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I asked for pancakes.
My mom is getting me a used labtop which will really come in handy for school next year, I feel like I use way to much paper for notes in myth.
I'm also asking for her to donate 50$ to peta for the preservation of the baby harp seals fund and to help promote the safety of their well being agaisnt hunters to kill them with a pointed spear. i hate people.
other then that i just want to be valued and appreciated. and i want to make a difference.
yesterday when i was writing in my journal i was writing about how i need someone to ask me if im okay and if i need them and I started thinking how everyone is so consumed in their own issues to even notice anyone elses and i realised that is exactly what i am doing and i wonder how many people out there maybe need me more then i need them and that made me feel a little bit better about the fact of needing.
i dont like soccer anymore.
im dreading spring break because i will be alone with myself and i will let my thoughts consume my entire being until I drive myself absolutely insane.
i hope they work me a ton.
im doing bad in school.
a positive, hmm...i finished my local scholarship essay and turned it in today and I go to st. norbert on friday for my interview and im actually not nervous. my mom and i are getting along better.
my dad told me people would like me more if i smiled and that he has a hard time smiling and its not a bad thing to be adamant in your beliefs but theres a point where you start pushing people away and he thinks i dont have a boyfriend becasue of that. i think its just because all the boys i know suck. but maybe he's right.
damn i wanted to end with a positive, oh yea, sadie likes me now.
end.