Fly bucket fly.
Hi.
I saw KY yesterday at the bridge and it reminded me of you and me; of how we used to be really close and it seemed like nothing can tear us apart. Then K came into it the picture, but I absolutely dont run in the same frequency as her. I just felt we drifted apart after your China trip (Aye, I still keep that paper cutting from china you gave me, and the card you drew and wrote). If I said that was true, you probably still won't believe it. Of course, I admit I did blew things into proportions, but most were true. But at that moment you asked me if you should expose your friend, I was devastated and disappointed, plus lotsa shit going on at family and school at that point in time, and I guess that shocked me. I didn't understand why I said it's a lie, but I did. 'cause at that point, even though M and K are the close to me, I knew that if you doubt me, no one else mattered anymore. It doesn't even matter if the whole school knows about the matter, or knows that I'm gay, I can't be bothered 'cause that time, I felt as though the only one person I could trust has now turned her back against me.
There are times when I fukken cry in school, and when people notice, I couldn't help it but just came up with retarded reasons, like that wasp was killed by Blackie J, Lucifer and some other guys. There was a time when I came to school, and looked at you and I just broke down. You asked me what happened but I didn't reply. I wouldn't know if you remember all these, but I know I might be "weird" at that period of time, but there were so much emotional struggles. Whether or not you should be the first person I tell it, and I was afraid you wouldn't even listen. Then again, it's already been so long. I never once got angry with you, and never used words on you even at the peak of that period, because you're really my best friend whom I could relate with so much, whom we shared recess food with, or borrowed money from and never returned, or lent money to and never returned, or being crazy together, or just listening to my complains and whining.
You know what, my impression of you never changed. I knew you were my best friend whom I could relate to so deeply and we did lotsa things together. Period.
I'm not asking for anything, but I know last year was a bitch, I hope this year will be much, much better for you and for me. I'm glad we talked too. =]
Happy Birthday.
I saw KY yesterday at the bridge and it reminded me of you and me; of how we used to be really close and it seemed like nothing can tear us apart. Then K came into it the picture, but I absolutely dont run in the same frequency as her. I just felt we drifted apart after your China trip (Aye, I still keep that paper cutting from china you gave me, and the card you drew and wrote). If I said that was true, you probably still won't believe it. Of course, I admit I did blew things into proportions, but most were true. But at that moment you asked me if you should expose your friend, I was devastated and disappointed, plus lotsa shit going on at family and school at that point in time, and I guess that shocked me. I didn't understand why I said it's a lie, but I did. 'cause at that point, even though M and K are the close to me, I knew that if you doubt me, no one else mattered anymore. It doesn't even matter if the whole school knows about the matter, or knows that I'm gay, I can't be bothered 'cause that time, I felt as though the only one person I could trust has now turned her back against me.
There are times when I fukken cry in school, and when people notice, I couldn't help it but just came up with retarded reasons, like that wasp was killed by Blackie J, Lucifer and some other guys. There was a time when I came to school, and looked at you and I just broke down. You asked me what happened but I didn't reply. I wouldn't know if you remember all these, but I know I might be "weird" at that period of time, but there were so much emotional struggles. Whether or not you should be the first person I tell it, and I was afraid you wouldn't even listen. Then again, it's already been so long. I never once got angry with you, and never used words on you even at the peak of that period, because you're really my best friend whom I could relate with so much, whom we shared recess food with, or borrowed money from and never returned, or lent money to and never returned, or being crazy together, or just listening to my complains and whining.
You know what, my impression of you never changed. I knew you were my best friend whom I could relate to so deeply and we did lotsa things together. Period.
I'm not asking for anything, but I know last year was a bitch, I hope this year will be much, much better for you and for me. I'm glad we talked too. =]
Happy Birthday.