My Girl?: Ohno Satoshi SP
Title: My Girl? Ohno Satoshi SP
Genre: Romance/fluff, Drama/angst
Rating: PG
Pairing: Ohmiya, one-sided Juntoshi
Disclaimer: I own nothing. I wish they were mine.
Word count: 2,425
Summary: Nino loses Ohno in an accident. 3 years later, he met a mysterious woman named Satoko. As they become close, more things get in the way and within those lies a hidden truth...
Author's Notes: It's past 1am here and 1 day to go before Oh-chan's birthday! Advance Happy Birthday, Ohno Satoshi! ♥♥♥ I have work that day so I may have a post celebration with friends on the weekend instead but maybe buying a cake on that day won't be so bad either...and a special chapter as my gift to you~ The setting is taken back in the past and it's from Ohno's perspective (If you've noticed, there's no PoV from him, am I right?), so I hope you guys enjoy reading this. The final chapter will be up in a few weeks I guess and I'm thinking of an epilogue so...patience? xDD Sorry. m(_ _)m
Sorry for the spelling/grammar mistakes. Douzo~
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I never thought that people would like me. I didn't think that I am as great as the crowd would say. I just do everything in pace and normalcy.
But the biggest shock would be having two of my friends having feelings for me.
It was one of the difficult moments I had encountered in my life. It was hard to make a decision and well, I don't even want to make it. I simply want everyone to be happy. Being friends with Aiba-chan, Sho-kun, Nino and Jun is the one of the best things that had ever happened to me.
However, that didn't stop my heart to beat for one special person and that was...
Nino…Ninomiya Kazunari.
I didn't know how it started but I guessed it was back at the clinic when he was looking after me. It felt so unexpected because from Aiba’s stories about him, he was basically a candid kid who gives witty retorts and he was like that…yet there’s rather else different during my time with him.
The next thing I knew, we're together. Not together in a romantic way but just hanging out. We got to know more of each other. We do our own things without the need to talk. I find it amazing how we can express ourselves in actions most of the time. I'm not hoping that my feelings will be reciprocated and all are fine as they are. It didn't stop me to care for others like Sho-kun, Aiba and MatsuJun.
However, a lot of stuff happened in my last year as a student. Or at least, that's what I noticed in contrast of "final days of summer" mentioned by Sho-kun.
Nino and Jun emits this cold aura and something else I can't pinpoint, when we're together. When I would ask them, they say it's nothing and wouldn't press further. I kinda think that Aiba may know a hint or two but he won't spill it. I even begged Sho to force the words out of him but even my childhood friend won't budge. The only answer I got is, "You need not know now...It's better if it will come from them so just... follow your heart when the time comes, okay?"
At first, I didn't get it.
Not until I received a confession from Jun. It was late evening, when I accompanied Jun and helped him practice his role as a lover from a romantic play. I can't remember the title though or perhaps it was new as I haven't seen the updates of this semester's list of plays.
"Last part Ohno-san and I'll be done."
I agreed nonchalantly, "It's alright MatsuJun, there's no need to rush."
He handed me an extra copy of the script, "Could you...uh, play out as the girl lead for a moment?"
I nodded happily and took the role; I even went as far as to speak like a true lady.
ROMEO [To JULIET]
If I profane with my unworthiest hand
This holy shrine, the gentle fine is this:
My lips, two blushing pilgrims, ready stand
To smooth that rough touch with a tender kiss.
JULIET
Good pilgrim, you do wrong your hand too much,
Which mannerly devotion shows in this;
For saints have hands that pilgrims’ hands do touch,
And palm to palm is holy palmers’ kiss.
ROMEO
Have not saints lips, and holy palmers too?
JULIET
Ay, pilgrim, lips that they must use in prayer.
ROMEO
O, then, dear saint, let lips do what hands do;
They pray, grant thou, lest faith turn to despair.
JULIET
Saints do not move, though grant for prayers’ sake.
ROMEO
Then move not, while my prayer’s effect I take.
I didn't understand the scene as a whole but when Jun came closer and kissed me full on the lips, I finally did. I froze, not knowing what to do. To my relief, he moved away first. With that, I flipped the page to the table of contents and that's where it made more sense.
Page 45: Romeo and Juliet's First Kiss, Act One, Scene Four.
I blinked my eyes and couldn't stop the blood rushing through my cheeks.
"I..." I started to laugh in embarrassment, "This must be really awkward for you--"
"It's not. I kissed you...because I wanted to...and so I could let you know my true feelings..." He looked at me in the eye and spoke the three words as sweetly as he can, "I like you."
Oh, is that it?
"Well, I like you too Jun-kun."
"No...it's not like that Ohno-san! I really, really like you. Ever since..."
…
So it was really a serious confession. I don't know how to respond. I don't want to hurt his feelings but I don't want him to raise his hopes on it either.
He's a very special person but in a familial way.
"I..."
He closed his hands on mine and as I stepped backwards, he kissed me again - this time, on the forehead, "You don't have to say anything. I'll wait for your answer. I hope we can still do things together, like the usual ne?"
I only nodded and walked out onwards.
The next day, it's like nothing has happened but I can't help but be tense every time he comes near in breaks. He probably sensed it so when the classes are over, he approached me wearing a worrisome expression beyond the school gates.
"Am I making you comfortable?"
"No, not really. It's just that I would remember last night's events whenever you’re present."
"I'm sorry if I made you feel that way. But somehow, it also makes me glad."
"Why?" My question made him step forward to hug me as he whispered the words, "Because you can't forget it."
"MatsuJun, Ohno-san?"
I pushed Jun away and nervously greeted Nino, who probably saw us in that close position. "Nino! I uh..I thought you went home already."
He didn't seem to bother what he'd saw and shrugged, "I was supposed to but I forgot something on my locker. I'll be going first then."
As he walked past us in a somewhat fast pace, I yelled, "W-wait!"
Nino wasn't looking back but stopped. I bid a short goodbye to Jun and ran towards him, "Let's go home together."
"Yeah sure, later J." He replied without any acknowledgement and stride off.
I didn't look at Jun but I can feel his eyes on me.
Or Nino.
Probably both?
That's impossible.
Thinking too deeply, I didn't notice him moving ahead again so fast. I grabbed his hand to stop him and ask what the hell is wrong. But the anger faded away when I saw his eyes getting red, trying his best not to cry.
"W-why are you crying Nino? Did something happen? Did the professor confiscate your console?"
He snagged his hand away from my grasp and used it to wipe his face, smiling, "It's nothing Ohno-san. It just hurts."
"What is?"
"When that one precious thing has been taken away from you."
That smile. To be honest, it's unnatural. It always looked like he's masking his true emotions.
"Nino..." I muttered but he laughed loudly, "Good thing my character has lots of lives to risk for the princess!"
So he was talking about a game, huh? Is he really crying for that? This brat…all my worry for nothing.
"You're getting too involved with your games. Let's go." I concluded with a pout and separated ways with him after some more walking.
Little did I know that he broke down quietly on the park after.
The next day, Aiba barged inside our classroom, greeted Sho on the way and sat in front of my desk.
"Riida, I'm going to ask you directly, are you and Jun together?"
I didn't look up and continued gazing outside the window, "Yeah, I suppose."
"Eh? Did you guys kiss?"
"I think so."
Aiba came closer as he pried more questions, "Eh??? Did...did you do it?"
"Did what?"
"You know... what lovers do at the heat of the moment..."
Lovers do at the...wait.
"Lovers? What do you mean?"
What is this guy really asking?
"Of course you know what I mean!"
Without looking up, Sho spoke, "Satoshi-kun, he's talking about you going together romantically and the possibility of engaging into, as people would call it, 'the second base'."
Huh, I've heard those in movies...Ah!
I suddenly stood in surprise, "N-no Aiba-chan! It wasn't like that! We're together but as friends. Nothing more."
Aiba pointed an accusing finger, "But you said you two kissed!"
His accusation caught our classmates' attention momentarily but carried on with their stuff, "Well, yes. But that was practice for his play! It doesn't mean...anything."
Sho interrupted again, "Really Satoshi-kun? It doesn't sound convincing."
I bit my lip and sighed, "Okay, after the kiss, he confessed."
"And? Did you accept it?"
"I didn't say anything because it all happened too fast. He said that he'll wait though."
Aiba crossed his arms, "How long are you going to make him wait?"
This is exasperating. "I just need time Aiba-chan. Anyway, who told you that we were together?"
"It's--"
The school bell rang and he dashed off leaving me wondering who would suspect such a thing. The doors are still open when I saw him almost colliding with Nino. Then, I heard it.
"Nino, there's still hope! Ohno denied it~"Aiba cheered.
Nino retorted, his tone vicious mixed with weakness, and pulled his friend away, "You idiot! What did you just tell him!?"
I didn't get to hear the rest of the conversation. Damn it.
When winter came, not only was the weather cold, but Nino as well. He was growing distant from me. It’s a void that no one can fill, not even Jun.
I can’t take it anymore, I have to confront Nino!
As soon as the classes were over, I hurried over to Nino whose class was dismissed earlier, “Nino, can we talk?”
“Can’t Ohno-san, my classmates invited me for Karaoke.”
“Then I’ll wait for you at the park okay? It doesn’t matter what time.”
“Maybe.”
And he was off.
A smile ghosted over my lips; I’ll tell him everything tonight.
A familiar voice shouted my name: it was Jun. “Ohno-san, there you are! Sakurai-san told me you went out immediately. I wanted to ask if you’re free today.”
“No sorry,” A pause and then, “Jun…about my answer on your…confession…I…I like you but I can’t return the feelings you feel for me. I really am sorry. I hope we can still be friends.”
“Do you…like someone else?”
“Y-yes.”
“I see. I hope this person likes you too.”
“I hope so too,” I gave him a kiss on the cheek before heading to the park, I’m really happy that you understand.”
I didn’t know that the moment I left him after giving him my answer made a huge impact in his life.
Like a kid, I played on the swing. I played on the slide. To pass time, I did everything I could in the park since there were no kids running around.
It’s almost midnight. The snow is falling faster than usual. It’s getting colder than few hours ago.
But Nino is nowhere to be seen.
Before I lost hope, I saw his figure waving goodbyes to his friends at the intersection. I thought he will cross the street to head over the park but he went straight ahead instead.
Had he forgotten?
I sprinted at once and didn’t recognize the stoplight that was still green at the time. A screech and I closed my eyes waiting for the impact.
I heard a loud honk and then a croaky voice, “That was close, you idiot!”
I heard running steps and that familiar voice, “I’m sorry Mister; this guy is really an idiot! I’ll take him home at once!” I opened my eyes and confirmed that it’s really him.
Nino took a bow and pulled my hand away from the road onto the park.
“What the hell was that Ohno-san? You could’ve died! What were you-”
Before he got himself to finish I hugged him. As expected, I missed this warmth. His warmth.
He didn’t move and tried to read the atmosphere, “Ohno-san?”
“Why didn’t you come?”
“Eh, I answered with a ‘maybe’. I thought that you would have gone home at this hour.”
I hugged him tightly in frustration, “I told you it doesn’t matter right? This is important!”
He took my shoulders and moved away, “What is so important you want to talk about? Anyway, shouldn’t you be with J? He was going over on asking you to go somewhere this morning.”
“I didn’t go, I said I have plans.”
“You should have said yes.”
“Why should I? I’m not his boyfriend or anything!”
He rolled his eyes while crossed his arms, “Oh really? You could just spill it out you know.”
His usual unpleasantness brought the anger out of me, “Don’t you trust me anymore? Why are you like this? It’s like you keep getting farther and further away from me!”
“Because if I get in the way, you two won’t be happy!”
Why was he even insisting on me and Jun?
“No you won’t! Why would you even say that?”
“I want the best for you because I like you Ohno-san!”
We were both at shock at Nino’s words. He closed his hands on his mouth, obviously embarrassed. “Ohno-san, that was…I didn’t mean…”
Before he can even run, I held him close for the second time.
“I heard it right ne Nino? Do you like me?”
He tried to move away but I didn’t let him. It’s my turn to say my true feelings.
“I also like you too Nino. So please… don’t go. Don’t go away.”
A sniff and I knew he was crying as he embraced me back. I soothe his back, “Sssh, it’s alright now.”
“I don’t want to confess because I saw how happy you are with Jun-kun. I thought that maybe distancing myself from you will help me lessen the pain but even so, I...”
“Well you thought wrong.”
“Oh-chan?”
“Yeah?”
“Thank you for returning my feelings.”
I felt his right cheek and narrowed the distance until our noses are touching, “No need for that. I didn’t return your feelings… they were already there right from the start.”
“I love you.”
I kissed him.
“I love you too.”
He kissed me back.
I never felt happier in my whole life.
I’m sure it’s the same thing for him as well.