so shit didn't work out

[senilia]

and from southern california i went to portland to meet my lover, total disaster. he left me in portland and i followed him to bellingham, i cornered him and he told me to leave. why? because he's afraid i will leave him, he doesn't want to start it up with me again. i'm going back through portland and then to northern cal, just so i can swim in the ocean and hang out in the trees and sleep a good sleep and dream a good dream.

redwoods and ocean, here i come.