Reading my own journal
Well I just went back and read every single post I've made since starting this journal in 2002. It took a couple of hours. I can say that I was really messed up a lot in 2002 and 2009. Between Drugs in 2002 and Brad's Death in 2009. There were a lot of times when I stopped posting, When I was with David, he would not allow me to post, he didn't want me writing about our lives, I just think he didn't want me to keep a record of what an asshole he was to me. I think he is the only man I really hate. I was so happy to get rid of him. Also when things are going good, but nothing is going on, then I don't post. I tend to post when I am unhappy (I usually mark them private or friends only).
Lets see what else I learned from reading my own journal.
Of all the men I wrote about Pat is the only one I am still friends with. He is a keeper. We have never met in person, but I think our bond is strong and we'll keep in touch and always be friends.
Valik and David were both huge mistakes. I still get very mad when I think about David, what a huge waste of time and my life. Valik was always mad at me for something and it was totally stupid, just all of it.
I've been over Darron for many years now, however I do still see him every once in a while (at the Castle). But it was never meant to be.
I still love Jason and he will always be my Eye Candy. In my heart I have not given up on him yet. I may even go over to his house this week. Actually reading my journal and seeing the first night I was introduced to him and thinking I called my Eye Candy for like two years before that, damn, I miss him like crazy. I'm glad I noted the important dates we spent together.
I still love going to the Castle. It will always be my home away from home. I have been going for the last couple of weeks and I have plans to go for at least the next couple Fridays. Some things never change.
Dusin, Kali, Tami, Zac, Joey, Ray and Wezel are still my friends.
Zoie and Ada were both nothing but trouble and balls of drama.
Drugs are bad - well at least mostly bad.. Te-he
There are a few other people who's name I didn't even see, like Benjamin, he was the one I let get away. I had him wrapped around my finger and I let him go for Brad, but he came back around after 2002 and we still talk every once in a while. I still have pretty strong feelings for him.
I still listen to mostly the same music.
So some things change and some things don't
Lets see what else I learned from reading my own journal.
Of all the men I wrote about Pat is the only one I am still friends with. He is a keeper. We have never met in person, but I think our bond is strong and we'll keep in touch and always be friends.
Valik and David were both huge mistakes. I still get very mad when I think about David, what a huge waste of time and my life. Valik was always mad at me for something and it was totally stupid, just all of it.
I've been over Darron for many years now, however I do still see him every once in a while (at the Castle). But it was never meant to be.
I still love Jason and he will always be my Eye Candy. In my heart I have not given up on him yet. I may even go over to his house this week. Actually reading my journal and seeing the first night I was introduced to him and thinking I called my Eye Candy for like two years before that, damn, I miss him like crazy. I'm glad I noted the important dates we spent together.
I still love going to the Castle. It will always be my home away from home. I have been going for the last couple of weeks and I have plans to go for at least the next couple Fridays. Some things never change.
Dusin, Kali, Tami, Zac, Joey, Ray and Wezel are still my friends.
Zoie and Ada were both nothing but trouble and balls of drama.
Drugs are bad - well at least mostly bad.. Te-he
There are a few other people who's name I didn't even see, like Benjamin, he was the one I let get away. I had him wrapped around my finger and I let him go for Brad, but he came back around after 2002 and we still talk every once in a while. I still have pretty strong feelings for him.
I still listen to mostly the same music.
So some things change and some things don't