nobody said it was easy
i just don't get it
how you can go from being the happiest man alive with senior raton
to bawling your eyes out from guilt, frustration, and pain... caused/inflicted by your own mother
i knew this wasn't going to be easy, and may never be
but why must it be this hard
how did i get here
jerry, you light up my life, literally
you are the source of my uncontrolable smile... no, beam...
i have never known this kind of love before, and it's exciting, and scary, and thrilling... it's life.
everyday is an adventure for us, together, and for the first time, i really feel like i'm living.
i'm alive... i feel alive.
for so long i have searched for inner peace of mind and just... happiness... the fucking pursuit of happiness has been quite a dramatic one at that... but that's what it is....
...
.....you
you have helped my find my happiness
and i want to spend my life trying my damndest to make you just as happy
yet my mother...
my mom...
i'm not asking for acceptance, understanding, open arms, hell, anything that even remotley suggests us coming over to the family's for dinner...
... i just want her to try.
yet she refuses.
she said that she'll die of attempted intervention
before she'll try
" i love you more than anything in this world... but this is not something i will ever even remotley consider trying to understand. no, i'm sorry son. "
[::sigh::]
" nobody said it was easy,
no one ever said it would be this hard...
... oh take me back to the start " - coldplay, "the scientist"
i wish i could
believe me
if i could take a "normal" pill as she puts it and be "normal" and avoid all of this "family destruction" as she puts it...
i would in a heartbeat.
i would go back to the start.
...but where is the start?
my first crush on a member of the same gender at the age of seven?
" give me love over, love over, love over... this "
- coldplay, "politik"
how you can go from being the happiest man alive with senior raton
to bawling your eyes out from guilt, frustration, and pain... caused/inflicted by your own mother
i knew this wasn't going to be easy, and may never be
but why must it be this hard
how did i get here
jerry, you light up my life, literally
you are the source of my uncontrolable smile... no, beam...
i have never known this kind of love before, and it's exciting, and scary, and thrilling... it's life.
everyday is an adventure for us, together, and for the first time, i really feel like i'm living.
i'm alive... i feel alive.
for so long i have searched for inner peace of mind and just... happiness... the fucking pursuit of happiness has been quite a dramatic one at that... but that's what it is....
...
.....you
you have helped my find my happiness
and i want to spend my life trying my damndest to make you just as happy
yet my mother...
my mom...
i'm not asking for acceptance, understanding, open arms, hell, anything that even remotley suggests us coming over to the family's for dinner...
... i just want her to try.
yet she refuses.
she said that she'll die of attempted intervention
before she'll try
" i love you more than anything in this world... but this is not something i will ever even remotley consider trying to understand. no, i'm sorry son. "
[::sigh::]
" nobody said it was easy,
no one ever said it would be this hard...
... oh take me back to the start " - coldplay, "the scientist"
i wish i could
believe me
if i could take a "normal" pill as she puts it and be "normal" and avoid all of this "family destruction" as she puts it...
i would in a heartbeat.
i would go back to the start.
...but where is the start?
my first crush on a member of the same gender at the age of seven?
" give me love over, love over, love over... this "
- coldplay, "politik"