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Today was been a horrible day and I'm sure it will only get worse or harder. I feel so stupid for being so sad. I just want to crawl up into a little ball and cry and sleep and disappear. I want to be right now. And that makes me feel even stupider. I shouldn't be this god damn sad but I am. I need to just suck it up and move on with my life. Or at least to the next step. I haven't cried this hard or long in a long. A lot of stuff has built up and it finally just took its toll. It hurts so so bad. Thank god for my friends. I love Brianna so freaking much. She is the bestest friend anyone could have. I don't know what I would do without her.