the rain will bring me down
tonight i saw superman
it was alright
i donno. it was weird cuz like hes just too like..he can do absolutely anything. and yesterday steves friends were talking about how religious people like him cuz hes a god figure or something
and its true now that he said i like thot abou that the entire movie and its like...he never gets hurt except for that green rock shit
like a vampire with a wooden dagger
i donno. its silly cuz its too unrealistic and itd be SOO wonderful if we could actually have a "savior" haha they call him that in the movie...itd be cool if we could have one..but we cant..so it sucks to even think aobut cuz its impossible
so it made me annoyed about that
also. there are 2 dog parts.
i was not happy and that pretty much took over my thinking and emotions for the entire movie. so whatever that ruins every movie for me i wish people could just leave animals especilaly dogs an cats out of movies
its completely unnecesary
they werent HORRIBLE dog parts..compared to like other movies but i donno it still made me so upset i couldnt even like...enjoy the rest of the movie much
anyways then i was driving home and ok this is really dorky but im going to confess to it haha
on the way home i started thinking about how my body was being carried faster an faster by this like bullet thing
and it felt really exciting thinking of it like my body moving fast cuz its sitting in this other thing
so i didnt wanna go home so i kept driving for a couple exits past mine haha then i came back cuz i really had to pee an my cramps got bad
and everyones so used to driving and we take it for granted and all
and i realized that my car is my most like prized posession besides my pictures
like...im IN love with my car.
and soon it will die because like my dad said the other day i "beat the shit out of it"
and i will have to save up to buy another. and im dreading the day beacuse ive fallen so deeply in love with my car
and i probly sound so stupid. but i spend so much time in that thing and i dont know. i love the time i spend in it
it has a ton of memories of me an hill and me an other people
this sounds ridic
today i was really pms
its so gross. i get really insecure
yesterday steve invited me to go with him an his friends to this water place
its a huge lake and we like swam in it on noodles and jumped off a cliff an stuff
and it was the funnest day everrrr
and i didnt see any snakes even tho i had like 398493743 million perfect chances to. andjohn even saw a god damn snake skin on the cliff we were jumping off.
when i jumped off the cliff it felt like i had heart burn after. like my heart hurt..it was really weird and uncomfortable.
like cuz of the speed to the water or soemthing i dont know but it was weird.
when i was talking about the like body in the machine going really fast i mean it felt like when superman is carrying somebody while he flies. like you can just look around while your body is flying through the air
i donno nevermind
i wish superman existed
it really annoys me when superheroes hide their identity from the woman they love. whats the point? the person is obviously not going to tell anyone.
i could never have taht much self control. i love to give in to bad urges abou telling
but seriuosly..what is it helping. stupid spiderman doesnt think mj or whatever can keep it a secret? yeah right.
and lois lane definateyl could. and she could have loved clark kent
and it really sucks in movies when like 2 people love each other and one has to go away an when they come back the person has moved on and found another relaly good person to love and then its impossible to choose because both people are relaly great
like in cast away
and in superman
it just sucks. cuz there are a ton of great people in the world to love. and i think everybody forgets that
i know i do. i always feel like ive found all the ones that i will love already. but i know its not true. i know there will be tons more to love that will come into my life later
its just so weird how things happen. i happened to meet sean because our class got canceled one day and i was sitting in the library wasting the class time and he happened to decide to go to the library for the first time that day. and i recognized him from class and i said "HEY! SIT HERE"
cuz thats how i am sometimes
adn thats how it began
february um 23rd? i know that because i took his phone from him that day and i took a picture of him hahaha
because i have a love relationship with camera phones. and when someone has one i cant keep my hands off of it
so its just weird you know? if that class hadnt been canceled i never would have gotten the nerve to randomly talk to him cuz in class you just be quiet and listen.
an wouldnt that have been a big fat shame? yes it would have
and steve...what if i decided it was too much of a risk to meet a young gentleman from the internet sketchily at the mall?
everything would be different
and what if hill never took PIANO LESSONS FROM MY MOM
or what if hil moved to california when her dad almost moved there for work when we were little
or what if i moved to tnenesee in 3rd grade when my dad almost had to move there for work
i donno its just weird
i feel weird and im annoyed that superman doesnt really exist.
hes a fine young man haha. how come hes so dorky when hes not being superman? like why does it even change so much. hes this cool like confident guy when hes superman
and when hes clarke he says "swell" and is a big fat klutz
so nobodoy realizes that when superman is in the hospital clarke kent is nowhere to be found? it wouldnt be too hard to figure it out i dont think. but thats just um whats it called...hindsight bias i guess. cuz i know now so i can be like "psh thats so obv" but it probluy wouldnt be in the other situation
anywasy i guess i have a lot to say tongiht haha dumb
so im doing good on my restraurant strike. im doing great
and my boss called tonight an said shes giving me a ton more hours. like 16 to be exact.
added to my already 15 so thats like 30. !!!!
so um...o can celebrate by driving around aimelssly becuase now i know ill have the money to pay for the stupid gas
what if one night i just drove to pennsylvania? some times i want to. but i have commitments so that sucks. i miss my sister an her apartment tho. she doesnt even live there anymore. ugh weird
i wonder what her house is like. or the one shes in. im comfused as to what house shes living in right now. maby chris's grandmothers i donno
but its foreign
the last tiem i was at pennsylvania i had some weird sickness and i had
well actually...bad impulse nevermind. but it was a really bad experience an it was when my grandpa died and so i want to go back an make a better memory of the last time being tehre you know
i had so much fun yesterday at the lake. water adventures are the bestttttttt. and steves friends are real nice
i mean i dont have a lot to say to relate to them all you know but when its just having fun all together i have stuff to input then anyway so thats enough i can just listen other times
they are real actual boys . like boys that love sports and talking abou sports and playing sports videogames
i dont know many of them haha. like actual boys
but i donno i still feel more comfortable even with those type of boys
it was funny tonight haha joes like friends came. well his friend franz and then a bunch of franz's friends. 2 boys and a girl
and at first i thot it was all boys as they were walking in an then a girl walked in an IMMEDIATELy i like shrank up and got incredibly nervous
i dotn know whats WRONG with me. i shook all the boys hands an then like i just waved to the girl cuz i wasnt sure if it was weird to shake a girls hand or not
god i dont know what my fucking problem is. she probly thinks im like a bitch cuz i decided not to shake her hand.
and i become this big fat losre whenever like im tlakign to the girls
like after we were talking about how the movie was kinda boring. and the girl was like "yeah it was fucking boring there was no action at all" or somethign an i was like all i coudl input was like "yeah!" hahahaa and i like giggled real nervously and im just the biggest fucking loser.
i wish it didnt happen. i dont know what my problem is. i want to like ask a therapist
hillarys parents
hahaa
i dont even like . i cant even think of an explanation for it. except for i was tomboyish when i was little. i guess i mostly hung out with boys but not REALLY. i mean pat was my best friend cuz he was my neighbor but so was hill. and hill became way more obv.
maby thats why. but plenty of peopel that grew up as tom boys are fine with girls. like jenna for example. no one knows her but whatever. christine cassa
i dont know oh well girls are too scary
i think i just like psyche myself up in my head about them too much. like i tell myself that they constantly judge
ok well this is extremely boring for anyone that isnt my fingers typing. sorry
i say sorry constantly now. and i know why. and i cant stop
when we were little hill used to be like that to me and i got real annoyed at it an i said " i wont be your friend anymore unless you stop saying sorry all the time" cuz i was a bitch haha and she did stop
i told her that in pats room on the floor.
thats a really clear memory i dont know why
so anyways someone should say that to me right now because i need to stop sayign sorry at unnecesary times
apparently mr.big is a like hair band metalish
paul gilbert is in it who is an amazing guitarist and also the most like amazing bassist is in it. or was i guess they dont exist anymore
but they had that pop song "to be with you" and youd never guess. but joe showed me them and like a video from them live and its all very strange
haha cuz i saw he had the cd and i was amking fun of him an he wasl ike "no way watch"
anyways. so thats weird
haha mr.big
i thot it was by some like one hit wonder idiots
my bodys all fucked up an it cant go to sleep before like 3 now
sucks for me
ok well im seriously shutting up bye
it was alright
i donno. it was weird cuz like hes just too like..he can do absolutely anything. and yesterday steves friends were talking about how religious people like him cuz hes a god figure or something
and its true now that he said i like thot abou that the entire movie and its like...he never gets hurt except for that green rock shit
like a vampire with a wooden dagger
i donno. its silly cuz its too unrealistic and itd be SOO wonderful if we could actually have a "savior" haha they call him that in the movie...itd be cool if we could have one..but we cant..so it sucks to even think aobut cuz its impossible
so it made me annoyed about that
also. there are 2 dog parts.
i was not happy and that pretty much took over my thinking and emotions for the entire movie. so whatever that ruins every movie for me i wish people could just leave animals especilaly dogs an cats out of movies
its completely unnecesary
they werent HORRIBLE dog parts..compared to like other movies but i donno it still made me so upset i couldnt even like...enjoy the rest of the movie much
anyways then i was driving home and ok this is really dorky but im going to confess to it haha
on the way home i started thinking about how my body was being carried faster an faster by this like bullet thing
and it felt really exciting thinking of it like my body moving fast cuz its sitting in this other thing
so i didnt wanna go home so i kept driving for a couple exits past mine haha then i came back cuz i really had to pee an my cramps got bad
and everyones so used to driving and we take it for granted and all
and i realized that my car is my most like prized posession besides my pictures
like...im IN love with my car.
and soon it will die because like my dad said the other day i "beat the shit out of it"
and i will have to save up to buy another. and im dreading the day beacuse ive fallen so deeply in love with my car
and i probly sound so stupid. but i spend so much time in that thing and i dont know. i love the time i spend in it
it has a ton of memories of me an hill and me an other people
this sounds ridic
today i was really pms
its so gross. i get really insecure
yesterday steve invited me to go with him an his friends to this water place
its a huge lake and we like swam in it on noodles and jumped off a cliff an stuff
and it was the funnest day everrrr
and i didnt see any snakes even tho i had like 398493743 million perfect chances to. andjohn even saw a god damn snake skin on the cliff we were jumping off.
when i jumped off the cliff it felt like i had heart burn after. like my heart hurt..it was really weird and uncomfortable.
like cuz of the speed to the water or soemthing i dont know but it was weird.
when i was talking about the like body in the machine going really fast i mean it felt like when superman is carrying somebody while he flies. like you can just look around while your body is flying through the air
i donno nevermind
i wish superman existed
it really annoys me when superheroes hide their identity from the woman they love. whats the point? the person is obviously not going to tell anyone.
i could never have taht much self control. i love to give in to bad urges abou telling
but seriuosly..what is it helping. stupid spiderman doesnt think mj or whatever can keep it a secret? yeah right.
and lois lane definateyl could. and she could have loved clark kent
and it really sucks in movies when like 2 people love each other and one has to go away an when they come back the person has moved on and found another relaly good person to love and then its impossible to choose because both people are relaly great
like in cast away
and in superman
it just sucks. cuz there are a ton of great people in the world to love. and i think everybody forgets that
i know i do. i always feel like ive found all the ones that i will love already. but i know its not true. i know there will be tons more to love that will come into my life later
its just so weird how things happen. i happened to meet sean because our class got canceled one day and i was sitting in the library wasting the class time and he happened to decide to go to the library for the first time that day. and i recognized him from class and i said "HEY! SIT HERE"
cuz thats how i am sometimes
adn thats how it began
february um 23rd? i know that because i took his phone from him that day and i took a picture of him hahaha
because i have a love relationship with camera phones. and when someone has one i cant keep my hands off of it
so its just weird you know? if that class hadnt been canceled i never would have gotten the nerve to randomly talk to him cuz in class you just be quiet and listen.
an wouldnt that have been a big fat shame? yes it would have
and steve...what if i decided it was too much of a risk to meet a young gentleman from the internet sketchily at the mall?
everything would be different
and what if hill never took PIANO LESSONS FROM MY MOM
or what if hil moved to california when her dad almost moved there for work when we were little
or what if i moved to tnenesee in 3rd grade when my dad almost had to move there for work
i donno its just weird
i feel weird and im annoyed that superman doesnt really exist.
hes a fine young man haha. how come hes so dorky when hes not being superman? like why does it even change so much. hes this cool like confident guy when hes superman
and when hes clarke he says "swell" and is a big fat klutz
so nobodoy realizes that when superman is in the hospital clarke kent is nowhere to be found? it wouldnt be too hard to figure it out i dont think. but thats just um whats it called...hindsight bias i guess. cuz i know now so i can be like "psh thats so obv" but it probluy wouldnt be in the other situation
anywasy i guess i have a lot to say tongiht haha dumb
so im doing good on my restraurant strike. im doing great
and my boss called tonight an said shes giving me a ton more hours. like 16 to be exact.
added to my already 15 so thats like 30. !!!!
so um...o can celebrate by driving around aimelssly becuase now i know ill have the money to pay for the stupid gas
what if one night i just drove to pennsylvania? some times i want to. but i have commitments so that sucks. i miss my sister an her apartment tho. she doesnt even live there anymore. ugh weird
i wonder what her house is like. or the one shes in. im comfused as to what house shes living in right now. maby chris's grandmothers i donno
but its foreign
the last tiem i was at pennsylvania i had some weird sickness and i had
well actually...bad impulse nevermind. but it was a really bad experience an it was when my grandpa died and so i want to go back an make a better memory of the last time being tehre you know
i had so much fun yesterday at the lake. water adventures are the bestttttttt. and steves friends are real nice
i mean i dont have a lot to say to relate to them all you know but when its just having fun all together i have stuff to input then anyway so thats enough i can just listen other times
they are real actual boys . like boys that love sports and talking abou sports and playing sports videogames
i dont know many of them haha. like actual boys
but i donno i still feel more comfortable even with those type of boys
it was funny tonight haha joes like friends came. well his friend franz and then a bunch of franz's friends. 2 boys and a girl
and at first i thot it was all boys as they were walking in an then a girl walked in an IMMEDIATELy i like shrank up and got incredibly nervous
i dotn know whats WRONG with me. i shook all the boys hands an then like i just waved to the girl cuz i wasnt sure if it was weird to shake a girls hand or not
god i dont know what my fucking problem is. she probly thinks im like a bitch cuz i decided not to shake her hand.
and i become this big fat losre whenever like im tlakign to the girls
like after we were talking about how the movie was kinda boring. and the girl was like "yeah it was fucking boring there was no action at all" or somethign an i was like all i coudl input was like "yeah!" hahahaa and i like giggled real nervously and im just the biggest fucking loser.
i wish it didnt happen. i dont know what my problem is. i want to like ask a therapist
hillarys parents
hahaa
i dont even like . i cant even think of an explanation for it. except for i was tomboyish when i was little. i guess i mostly hung out with boys but not REALLY. i mean pat was my best friend cuz he was my neighbor but so was hill. and hill became way more obv.
maby thats why. but plenty of peopel that grew up as tom boys are fine with girls. like jenna for example. no one knows her but whatever. christine cassa
i dont know oh well girls are too scary
i think i just like psyche myself up in my head about them too much. like i tell myself that they constantly judge
ok well this is extremely boring for anyone that isnt my fingers typing. sorry
i say sorry constantly now. and i know why. and i cant stop
when we were little hill used to be like that to me and i got real annoyed at it an i said " i wont be your friend anymore unless you stop saying sorry all the time" cuz i was a bitch haha and she did stop
i told her that in pats room on the floor.
thats a really clear memory i dont know why
so anyways someone should say that to me right now because i need to stop sayign sorry at unnecesary times
apparently mr.big is a like hair band metalish
paul gilbert is in it who is an amazing guitarist and also the most like amazing bassist is in it. or was i guess they dont exist anymore
but they had that pop song "to be with you" and youd never guess. but joe showed me them and like a video from them live and its all very strange
haha cuz i saw he had the cd and i was amking fun of him an he wasl ike "no way watch"
anyways. so thats weird
haha mr.big
i thot it was by some like one hit wonder idiots
my bodys all fucked up an it cant go to sleep before like 3 now
sucks for me
ok well im seriously shutting up bye