just wondering...

[senatoramidala]

why is it that we meet people, become close friends, share happy memories and in the end one of you just throws it all away. It seems like they don't care anymore, or they don't think of the past, or maybe that's just the way they are built. They cherish the current relationship and throw away the previous or old ones. It hurts to think that some people can just erase you from their lives like popping a bubble. But i guess i can't compare myself and how i treasure the deep meaning of friendship to other people. I was talking to Em for a long time today. We were discussing lots of stuff. She was hurt by the person that can truly give her one of the worst pain in her life. It was very unexpected, it may not seem like it, but what happened saddens me. I wonder if i was around could i have done something or would i have just made things worse. Well whatever... a lot of things make me sad these days, i have to let go of somethings. I was talking to a friend, and i told that friend that i wasn't going back, they simply replied with "are you gonna come visit?" i thought about the question, and my answer was "nah, just forget i even existed" its sad i know, but its the best way, i don't wanna lie to myself anymore, i know distance always does its job, so i might as well face the fact that its over, rather than wait for us to drift apart slowly, it hurts more that way.

"sometimes goodbye
though it hurts in the heart
is the only way for destiny..."