small world...
Ok I woke up this morning at 630am (Em didn't get to wake me up though cos' i text her late), thank god i woke up from my cell alarm. But yeah it woke me up at 630am but of course i didn't get up until 7am, so i had to just slap on some clothes, and speed walk to class since i don't have a bike. I was so proud though cos' i finished my essay for english early so i didn't have to stress about it the night before..that was a first hehehe. After english (950am), i went back to the dorm and to our room, I hella wanted to jump back to bed but i had to do my stat hw {sigh}, for some reason i got myself to just grab my books and go to the lounge (sonya was still sleeping didn't wanna bother her by turning on the lights). I finished my hw at around 1145am, went back to the room and went online. At around 200pm I met up with Ernest (ahem, no one special) to go to the Silo to eat with his friends (three asian girls). When we got there i realized that i know all three of them and one of them is actually my friend. It was just hella funny cos' when Em was here we saw Ernest and the three girls, and we were like prejudging the three girls. The three girls were Saranya (my friend), Gift (sorta my friend) and Nak. They're all nice, cos' we hung out with them sat. night (saw scary movie with them). But anyway, when we met Gift she told me that i looked hella familiar, but i didn't think she looked familiar. Well today we found out that we actually met before during stat discussion hehehe, yeah i thought that was hella funny, it's a small world.
Now about my crew try outs... Well i was totally debating whether i should go to the try outs or just back out. I didn't know whether i should just apply at gagan's job or crew. First of all, i was told to try out for coxswain position cos' i was too small to actually row, i decided that i should give it a try being a coxswain (steering, encouragement, sitting at the edge of the boat...). Nearing my try out time, i came to a conclusion, i wasn't gonna try out and instead just apply for a job (money). But i didn't want to just not show up, so i still went to the try out and talked to the coach. There i saw these girls, they were intimidating, they looked fit and ready to go. I even saw them running and i thought to myself "my gosh i can't even run a whole lap without stopping" and there they were, running laps. So yeah the more i didn't want to try out...oh gosh... I told the coach i might just wait til' next year to try out..then she said "are you sure?" I said i actually wanted to row row and she told me i can try out its just i have to show up at 630pm and run, but i didn't go back there so i guess crew is out for me. I still have the PE. I guess i'm not meant to row, i can accept that. I just wanted to do something besides study, but i ended up where i was at in the beginning. I chickened out cos' of all those negative thoughts like those girls have better chances of making it in the team, i don't have money for physical, its gonna take up my weekends, too weak to be in the team. In short i got scared. Oh well.... Tomorrow i have PE but i don't feel like showing up cos' i'm too embarrass to, but eventually i'm gonna have to go or else i'll fail.
The cool thing that i did today was buy my amtrak ticket (yeepee!!!), i can't wait to go home. But yeah I just wish i was as confident and as strong as how Em thinks of me..it'll sure make life easier and less complicated. Oh well i'm out
Now about my crew try outs... Well i was totally debating whether i should go to the try outs or just back out. I didn't know whether i should just apply at gagan's job or crew. First of all, i was told to try out for coxswain position cos' i was too small to actually row, i decided that i should give it a try being a coxswain (steering, encouragement, sitting at the edge of the boat...). Nearing my try out time, i came to a conclusion, i wasn't gonna try out and instead just apply for a job (money). But i didn't want to just not show up, so i still went to the try out and talked to the coach. There i saw these girls, they were intimidating, they looked fit and ready to go. I even saw them running and i thought to myself "my gosh i can't even run a whole lap without stopping" and there they were, running laps. So yeah the more i didn't want to try out...oh gosh... I told the coach i might just wait til' next year to try out..then she said "are you sure?" I said i actually wanted to row row and she told me i can try out its just i have to show up at 630pm and run, but i didn't go back there so i guess crew is out for me. I still have the PE. I guess i'm not meant to row, i can accept that. I just wanted to do something besides study, but i ended up where i was at in the beginning. I chickened out cos' of all those negative thoughts like those girls have better chances of making it in the team, i don't have money for physical, its gonna take up my weekends, too weak to be in the team. In short i got scared. Oh well.... Tomorrow i have PE but i don't feel like showing up cos' i'm too embarrass to, but eventually i'm gonna have to go or else i'll fail.
The cool thing that i did today was buy my amtrak ticket (yeepee!!!), i can't wait to go home. But yeah I just wish i was as confident and as strong as how Em thinks of me..it'll sure make life easier and less complicated. Oh well i'm out