Feb 08, 2005 23:46
I'm back in DC. The only thing thats different this time is that Larissa is with me. She makes this crap bearable. Having to sit through the State of the Union address with that chump up there acting like he knows what the hell he's talking about. It was a joke. We need real change around her. Not just people running around afraid to say boo against this administartion. It's like the country that I love, that I have always wanted to serve no longer exists.
Larissa's friend Pan is pulling out all the stops trying to make a go of his plans to make the world a better place. The actress, Brooke Alexander's death seem to hit hard that no matter how hard you try, making the violence go away will always be somewhat out of grasp. I want to believe that Pan can do it, but until he does, I'll keep trying my way to get some of these things to change for the better.
Larissa's faith in me is a huge inspiration. Somewhere along the way I think I fell in lve with here. I'm very aware that the feeling aren't mutual, that for some reason she was sent to me to get me on board some big picture plan. But it's what it is. She's been by my side more than anyone else in my life has been, for whatever reason. I'm hoping when all is said and done she'll still be around. I know its a little unrealistic, but its what I think about seems like constantly lately.
We have another fundraisning event to attend tonight. I'd rather stay in, but raising money, getting more democrats in office is the only way at this moment I can think of to exact change until these other supposedly great plans come through.