Day 36
Lately I watched more movies on his netflix, I did ask for permission, but it almost seems wrong.
Plus I have a bad habit of rating movies I liked, that he now mostly marked as "not interested".
I feel bad for doing so, and also bad about him doing so, even though it's his right.
So much time has passed since his mail.
I don't think he is ever going to reply.
He is never coming back. My heart needs to realize that.
I want to call him, tell him how much I miss him, but I am afraid that he won't say the same.
And part of me hates his guts for putting me through all this, for not loving me, for tossing me.
But hey, what's new???
It's all the same.