Day 20
Oh horrible nightmare
But I guess I brought that onto myself.
I dreamt that I looked at his facebook again and he added soo many girls that he also kept talking to on there. With lots of pictures of kissing and touching.
Then we suddenly talked on the phone, and he said he was getting married. I laughed my "yeah right" but he stayed serious, saying he loves her. I still didn't believe him because it's not possible to love someone in 20 days or less but he said he "knows he loves her". He finally knew what love was and realized he never really loved me.
Woke up and felt so bad. My heart kept hammering away, but I couldn't cry.
I think that dream is my biggest fear but also what I have been suspecting for a long time.
I miss him so.
I wish he'd call.
But I also wish he was suffering