it's just that time of year when we push ourselves ahead
1. What did you do in 2005 that you'd never done before? i had a successful long distance relationship over seven different time zones. i made someone fly across the atlantic ocean for a weekend. i took vacations with seb. i coached my team to a record setting season. i spent an entire summer watching the same two children. i had my first legal drink. i jumped into an ocean naked. i spent an entire week on a single island. i "graduated" college. i am about to go to a bar in new york city for new years eve with a significant portion of my graduating class.
2. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year? i didn't make any last year. this year, i resolve to say fuck perfection a little more often and to write, by hand, every day.
3. Did anyone close to you give birth? i got another baby cousin a couple days before christmas.
4. Did anyone close to you die? nope, thankfully.
5. What countries did you visit? england & italy & canada.
6. What would you like to have in 2006 that you lacked in 2005? more unconditional self acceptance. i'm hard wired to never be satisfied, but life's too long to always be berating yourself for getting an A- instead of an A.
7. What date from 2005 will remain etched upon your memory, and why? i turned 21 on july 7th, that's about it. every other important day was mainly important because it was the end of a countdown that separated me from him.
8. What was your biggest achievement of the year? successfully establishing my writing group. graduating early, perhaps.
9. What was your biggest failure? a lack of satisfaction when truthfully, everything was just right.
10. Did you suffer illness or injury? i've been healthy, finally.
11. What was the best thing you bought? my pink fuzzy northface. silly, but everyone loves to touch it and it makes me happy daily.
12. Whose behavior merited celebration? the people close to me. i'm damn picky, and you don't get there unless i think you're everything.
13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed? appalled, nobody. i think i screen for people capable of doing things that appall me. depressed, i guess girls every time they negated self respect for a boy that wasn't worth it and anyone who thinks a good night is any night when you don't remember exactly how you got home.
14. Where did most of your money go? a new camera before spring break. vacations. and the usual books and retail therapy.
15. What did you get really, really, really excited about? every single time i got to see him, especially summer.
16. What song will always remind you of 2005? that anna nalick song, it was what we sang on the tournament bus for lacrosse.
17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
i. happier or sadder? tough call, i was pretty happy last new years. if i'm any sadder, my fluctuating neurotransmitter levels are all that's to blame.
ii. thinner or fatter? apparently thinner, at least that's what people have been telling me.
iii. richer or poorer? richer, that's what a summer of working compared to a summer of doing nothing gets you.
18. What do you wish you'd done more of? writing. laughing. gone out and had fun. (that was last year's answer, and i guess i'd have to agree with it again)
19. What do you wish you'd done less of? schoolwork, but of course that's easy to say now that i'm done and my good gpa is preserved forever.
20. How will you be spending Christmas? it already happened, but it didn't really feel like it did. i think this was the most understated christmas of my life.
22. Did you fall in love in 2005? i suppose i did :)
23. How many one-night stands? haha, none.
24. What was your favorite TV program? 24. laguna beach. nip/tuck. this was the year i started watching tv again.
25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year? nope. again with the screening process.
26. What was the best book you read? the history of love, without a doubt.
27. What was your greatest musical discovery? the album leaf. i got really into david gray too.
28. What did you want and get? love, i guess.
29. What did you want and not get? more true friendships. a more relaxed, accepting way of handling the day by day. (ditto again, my how the years pass without much progress)
30. What was your favorite film of this year? wedding crashers.
31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you? i turned 21. i drank champange at midnight with my boyfriend. the next night i went out to a bar and got as drunk as i get these days.
32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying? a private jet, so that i wouldn't have wasted so much time talking about how badly i wanted to see someone.
33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2005? same as always, blue and pink and yellow and anything that's made for people with small butts.
34. What kept you sane? endorphins, seb, whole grains.
35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most? paul walker kind of came back this year. and he's still as sexy as ever.
36. What political issue stirred you the most? i paid attention to the news around the whole supreme court justice selection thing. cause i do think it matters. i just get frusterated because there's not much i can ever do about it.
37. Who did you miss? seb.
38. Who was the best new person you met? maybe hanna, she made lacrosse that much better. i love the people in my writing group for being quirky and observant. they all pretty much make my life.
39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2005. that even perfect won't always satisfy me.
40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year.
but you know
that when the truth is told
that you can get what you want
or you can just get old
(good ole billy joel)
and a book quote:
what about you, are you the happiest and saddest right now that you've ever been?
of course i am.
why?
because nothing makes me happier and nothing makes me sadder than you.
(nicole krauss)
happy new year everyone :)
2. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year? i didn't make any last year. this year, i resolve to say fuck perfection a little more often and to write, by hand, every day.
3. Did anyone close to you give birth? i got another baby cousin a couple days before christmas.
4. Did anyone close to you die? nope, thankfully.
5. What countries did you visit? england & italy & canada.
6. What would you like to have in 2006 that you lacked in 2005? more unconditional self acceptance. i'm hard wired to never be satisfied, but life's too long to always be berating yourself for getting an A- instead of an A.
7. What date from 2005 will remain etched upon your memory, and why? i turned 21 on july 7th, that's about it. every other important day was mainly important because it was the end of a countdown that separated me from him.
8. What was your biggest achievement of the year? successfully establishing my writing group. graduating early, perhaps.
9. What was your biggest failure? a lack of satisfaction when truthfully, everything was just right.
10. Did you suffer illness or injury? i've been healthy, finally.
11. What was the best thing you bought? my pink fuzzy northface. silly, but everyone loves to touch it and it makes me happy daily.
12. Whose behavior merited celebration? the people close to me. i'm damn picky, and you don't get there unless i think you're everything.
13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed? appalled, nobody. i think i screen for people capable of doing things that appall me. depressed, i guess girls every time they negated self respect for a boy that wasn't worth it and anyone who thinks a good night is any night when you don't remember exactly how you got home.
14. Where did most of your money go? a new camera before spring break. vacations. and the usual books and retail therapy.
15. What did you get really, really, really excited about? every single time i got to see him, especially summer.
16. What song will always remind you of 2005? that anna nalick song, it was what we sang on the tournament bus for lacrosse.
17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
i. happier or sadder? tough call, i was pretty happy last new years. if i'm any sadder, my fluctuating neurotransmitter levels are all that's to blame.
ii. thinner or fatter? apparently thinner, at least that's what people have been telling me.
iii. richer or poorer? richer, that's what a summer of working compared to a summer of doing nothing gets you.
18. What do you wish you'd done more of? writing. laughing. gone out and had fun. (that was last year's answer, and i guess i'd have to agree with it again)
19. What do you wish you'd done less of? schoolwork, but of course that's easy to say now that i'm done and my good gpa is preserved forever.
20. How will you be spending Christmas? it already happened, but it didn't really feel like it did. i think this was the most understated christmas of my life.
22. Did you fall in love in 2005? i suppose i did :)
23. How many one-night stands? haha, none.
24. What was your favorite TV program? 24. laguna beach. nip/tuck. this was the year i started watching tv again.
25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year? nope. again with the screening process.
26. What was the best book you read? the history of love, without a doubt.
27. What was your greatest musical discovery? the album leaf. i got really into david gray too.
28. What did you want and get? love, i guess.
29. What did you want and not get? more true friendships. a more relaxed, accepting way of handling the day by day. (ditto again, my how the years pass without much progress)
30. What was your favorite film of this year? wedding crashers.
31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you? i turned 21. i drank champange at midnight with my boyfriend. the next night i went out to a bar and got as drunk as i get these days.
32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying? a private jet, so that i wouldn't have wasted so much time talking about how badly i wanted to see someone.
33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2005? same as always, blue and pink and yellow and anything that's made for people with small butts.
34. What kept you sane? endorphins, seb, whole grains.
35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most? paul walker kind of came back this year. and he's still as sexy as ever.
36. What political issue stirred you the most? i paid attention to the news around the whole supreme court justice selection thing. cause i do think it matters. i just get frusterated because there's not much i can ever do about it.
37. Who did you miss? seb.
38. Who was the best new person you met? maybe hanna, she made lacrosse that much better. i love the people in my writing group for being quirky and observant. they all pretty much make my life.
39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2005. that even perfect won't always satisfy me.
40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year.
but you know
that when the truth is told
that you can get what you want
or you can just get old
(good ole billy joel)
and a book quote:
what about you, are you the happiest and saddest right now that you've ever been?
of course i am.
why?
because nothing makes me happier and nothing makes me sadder than you.
(nicole krauss)
happy new year everyone :)