Here it is folks, the tell all know all of Katie
All so you want a cool entry? i'll give you a real cool one. it's on the topic of everything. Lets start with...
Me: I can be many things. I am many things. I am paranoid, jealous, a bitch, a shy gal, flirtacious (at the appropriate time), a prude, a skank, a drama queen, the anti-drama queen, a hippie, a ditz...I can be a lot of things. But right now... I am just scared. I am scared of losing every good thing I have. I am having really bad chest pains again and my right actually went numb yesterday. Thooooose are symptoms of several things such as : heart attack, lupus...so really just two. But it is scary none the less. I don't want a disease. Then ofcourse, i don't want to lose pat for any reason because he is basically my rock right now. But i don't think he realizes how important he is to me or maybe I am just not as important to him. Then there is the whole rachel thing. I just don't want to lose him or find out he likes her more than me...i don't know. I am just scared in general. Maybe if I forget about it...it will go away.
The Family:I am from a broken home...end of story.
The Friends: Well let's see, it's like my best friends don't even want to talk to me anymore, and the only people that seem to care are the people that just call me out of the blue for no reason. I don't even care anymore.
Life in general: Right now...I don't really like it. I cry about every day. About nothing. Well about something, but i never know what. I am just sick of all this crap. Life is a rubber band...when something good happens the rubber band stretches, and as good things keep happening it stretches it more. And then all of the sudden it snaps and then it's just a a series of bad things until something good happens in which the rubberband stretches again. I am waiting for something good to happen. But it won't, i know it won't. I hate this. i just want school to be over so i can just run away. And honestly, I don't think anyone except my mom would care. This is probably just another cry for help things. I have been praying every night for God to help me just a little. and I've gotten nothing. I got a fortune cookie today. It said "You will have some wonderful new experiences." Hah! whatever.
I give up. I just need a little security. I just want everything to go back to what it was, good.
Me: I can be many things. I am many things. I am paranoid, jealous, a bitch, a shy gal, flirtacious (at the appropriate time), a prude, a skank, a drama queen, the anti-drama queen, a hippie, a ditz...I can be a lot of things. But right now... I am just scared. I am scared of losing every good thing I have. I am having really bad chest pains again and my right actually went numb yesterday. Thooooose are symptoms of several things such as : heart attack, lupus...so really just two. But it is scary none the less. I don't want a disease. Then ofcourse, i don't want to lose pat for any reason because he is basically my rock right now. But i don't think he realizes how important he is to me or maybe I am just not as important to him. Then there is the whole rachel thing. I just don't want to lose him or find out he likes her more than me...i don't know. I am just scared in general. Maybe if I forget about it...it will go away.
The Family:I am from a broken home...end of story.
The Friends: Well let's see, it's like my best friends don't even want to talk to me anymore, and the only people that seem to care are the people that just call me out of the blue for no reason. I don't even care anymore.
Life in general: Right now...I don't really like it. I cry about every day. About nothing. Well about something, but i never know what. I am just sick of all this crap. Life is a rubber band...when something good happens the rubber band stretches, and as good things keep happening it stretches it more. And then all of the sudden it snaps and then it's just a a series of bad things until something good happens in which the rubberband stretches again. I am waiting for something good to happen. But it won't, i know it won't. I hate this. i just want school to be over so i can just run away. And honestly, I don't think anyone except my mom would care. This is probably just another cry for help things. I have been praying every night for God to help me just a little. and I've gotten nothing. I got a fortune cookie today. It said "You will have some wonderful new experiences." Hah! whatever.
I give up. I just need a little security. I just want everything to go back to what it was, good.