i think i need a new icon pix... give me ideas
well i'm a legal adult now... wow is that scary!
life has been crazy lately... i won't bad & i won't say good.... but it has been a good mixture, which i'm not really used to right now. I have had the worst 2 or 3 of my life and now things are looking up. I think i've learned a lot though, i've become a better me, maybe a more gruff and tough me but i think it's me.... well at least most of the time or at least that is who i have become. i hate regret! there is nothing i can ever do to fix things, i mean my grandma,aunt nancey and uncle ted are gone now, but sometimes i wish that i would have dropped everything the moment they became ill and spent everyday with them, but i know they would not have wanted that. I just feel so bad sometimes that as aunt lied on a sugon's table dieing i was taking a freaking final at school. i just seems so hard to believe that they are gone, sometimes i forget. i think i can't wait till the next time we all gather at my cousin's house and i can see everyone then i realize that it will never happen because it can't. however, the past few weeks have been fun, a 1st time smoothy king run, lion king galore, beating code one dispatch, my birthday, the amazing book of my friends senior pix my friend laurie made, fun new classes, a potential college roommate and guaranteed friend, a rose vist, a trip to denny's, a new cat named agape, and me improving guard-wise.
Boys are funny creatures, you never know what one will say, do, or just quite what they are thinking... but hey i'm not gonna dwell on it. but i will say i had 12 boys whom i love send me a bunch of flowers last friday. it was not only a total surprise but made my day all that much better!
God has been awesome lately, i'm trying to read through the bible within this year, right now my goal is the minor prophets and i'm almost done there... it has been really interesting and i've learned a ton.
i'm also going to germany this summer from june 23 to july 13. i am so pumped i can't wait, we get to go camping in the ALPS!!! who awesome is that. i can't wait it's gonna be grand to see god's creation like that! i also want to see all the old churches and see what christian's castle... yes i know someone who own a castle. the only thing i'm dreading is the fact that most of the people i'm going with will be trashed the entire time and will want me to be their supplier... sorry that is one thing i will not do. drinking=the dumbest thing ever! why would you ever want to kill your self, hurt everyone around you, and then even if it was fun have to pay for it by puking the next day and not even remembering it all? Rahh it makes me want to scream.
I have also determined that people(family mostly) is trying to merry off... my sister has had 3 dreams, other people have picked out a boy, and my brother-in-law said i was coming back from jamaica engaged.. i think we should just wait cuz i'm trusting God on this one for sure...
"Everything"
I said a prayer
That someday I would find a boy
And together we'd find joy
Maybe someday
And he would care
About the color of the sky
About the things that make me cry
Maybe someday
And if it happens this is what I'd say:
And I will give you my life
Together we'll make it right
And I will say to you
What is for sure
That I'll give you my world
And baby I'll be your girl
And I will say to you
Everything I have is yours
I wonder if
If God has shown him
He is the one whose gonna marry me
Maybe someday
So, I'm gonna wait
'Cause I'm worth waiting for
And what I'm worth is so much more
For that someday
well i think that is enough of my gibberish for now... till i have time once again that i feel like i can spare... we i probably could have done homework or started memorizing lines( oh i have 2 well kinda 3 shows coming up.. i'll let you all know, just so when you don't show up you can't say i didn't give you warning, 1 is in march , 1 april and the other either the very end of april or beginning begining of may) well i'm outtie....
life has been crazy lately... i won't bad & i won't say good.... but it has been a good mixture, which i'm not really used to right now. I have had the worst 2 or 3 of my life and now things are looking up. I think i've learned a lot though, i've become a better me, maybe a more gruff and tough me but i think it's me.... well at least most of the time or at least that is who i have become. i hate regret! there is nothing i can ever do to fix things, i mean my grandma,aunt nancey and uncle ted are gone now, but sometimes i wish that i would have dropped everything the moment they became ill and spent everyday with them, but i know they would not have wanted that. I just feel so bad sometimes that as aunt lied on a sugon's table dieing i was taking a freaking final at school. i just seems so hard to believe that they are gone, sometimes i forget. i think i can't wait till the next time we all gather at my cousin's house and i can see everyone then i realize that it will never happen because it can't. however, the past few weeks have been fun, a 1st time smoothy king run, lion king galore, beating code one dispatch, my birthday, the amazing book of my friends senior pix my friend laurie made, fun new classes, a potential college roommate and guaranteed friend, a rose vist, a trip to denny's, a new cat named agape, and me improving guard-wise.
Boys are funny creatures, you never know what one will say, do, or just quite what they are thinking... but hey i'm not gonna dwell on it. but i will say i had 12 boys whom i love send me a bunch of flowers last friday. it was not only a total surprise but made my day all that much better!
God has been awesome lately, i'm trying to read through the bible within this year, right now my goal is the minor prophets and i'm almost done there... it has been really interesting and i've learned a ton.
i'm also going to germany this summer from june 23 to july 13. i am so pumped i can't wait, we get to go camping in the ALPS!!! who awesome is that. i can't wait it's gonna be grand to see god's creation like that! i also want to see all the old churches and see what christian's castle... yes i know someone who own a castle. the only thing i'm dreading is the fact that most of the people i'm going with will be trashed the entire time and will want me to be their supplier... sorry that is one thing i will not do. drinking=the dumbest thing ever! why would you ever want to kill your self, hurt everyone around you, and then even if it was fun have to pay for it by puking the next day and not even remembering it all? Rahh it makes me want to scream.
I have also determined that people(family mostly) is trying to merry off... my sister has had 3 dreams, other people have picked out a boy, and my brother-in-law said i was coming back from jamaica engaged.. i think we should just wait cuz i'm trusting God on this one for sure...
"Everything"
I said a prayer
That someday I would find a boy
And together we'd find joy
Maybe someday
And he would care
About the color of the sky
About the things that make me cry
Maybe someday
And if it happens this is what I'd say:
And I will give you my life
Together we'll make it right
And I will say to you
What is for sure
That I'll give you my world
And baby I'll be your girl
And I will say to you
Everything I have is yours
I wonder if
If God has shown him
He is the one whose gonna marry me
Maybe someday
So, I'm gonna wait
'Cause I'm worth waiting for
And what I'm worth is so much more
For that someday
well i think that is enough of my gibberish for now... till i have time once again that i feel like i can spare... we i probably could have done homework or started memorizing lines( oh i have 2 well kinda 3 shows coming up.. i'll let you all know, just so when you don't show up you can't say i didn't give you warning, 1 is in march , 1 april and the other either the very end of april or beginning begining of may) well i'm outtie....