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voice folkloristic October 27 2011, 18:19:26 UTC
[ Helios sounds...well he sounds tired but beyond that he seems normal enough. At least he's trying to fake the normalcy after what happened last night it was...it was very hard to do so. ] You don't have to apologize for that Robert.

[ Besides they all knew it was an experiment. There's a few seconds pause before he responds again. ] I'm sorry a-about Splinter...

[ What a terrible time to have someone leave. Just after the effects of the malnosso kidnapping worn off. He can't even imagine how Donatello and his brother must be feeling. ]

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voice semper_cogitans October 27 2011, 20:29:36 UTC
[Helios. One of the people Robert loves, who he just forgot. He remembers exactly how Audubon felt towards him - wary, fearfulness mixed with wonderment and vague longing and some part that thought just maybe it should consider what was said -]

...

E-everything has been... t-terrible, Helios.

[Softly, wetly:] I am s-so sorry I forgot you... you, of all people...

... A-are, are the others alright at least? Are you, with... with this latest a-abomination occurring?

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voice folkloristic October 27 2011, 21:05:48 UTC
It'll be alright Robert. You're...you're you again and everything gets better. I-I'm sorry it had to come during this, this experiment though. [ He sighs on his end it's slightly shaky. He vaguely wonders if Giles will remember him when he gets back. ] It wasn't you fault. Y-You've nothing to apologize for.

As for the others? We're c-coping yes. These mask some, some of them are dangerous. Y-You should be wary just, just to be careful around them.

[ He says his reply far too quickly when Robert asks that question. ] And I'm fine.

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voice semper_cogitans October 28 2011, 00:50:39 UTC
... I... I r-remember. Audubon - I - had two of them on b-before.

[He shudders at the memory of how he acted with the Garo Mask on. He remembers trying to hurt Eggman, and that person, and others...]

...

... I... t-tried to attack people...

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voice folkloristic October 28 2011, 01:30:17 UTC
[ He remembers last night. Bits and pieces flash through his memory as he listens. His breath hitches a little. ] I-It wasn't you Robert. It was just, it was those masks.

You didn't...though. Did you? [ It's a hard question to ask but he has to ask it. ]

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voice semper_cogitans October 28 2011, 01:43:06 UTC
...

I... I hurt people.

[It's hard to admit this. Painfully hard. But he says it anyway, as though talking about it will clear his mind.]

... I-It was... a dark hood. I... I felt like I had to f-fight them. That... that I was in danger, and Audubon - he, I... ... he w-wasn't accepted because of wh-what he was, and, a-and as a result... [Choking a sob down, now.]

...

... I... I d-did not manage to... to kill or maim anybody s-severely. But... but I attacked p-perfectly innocent people. For... for no reason.

[He feels... disgusting, honestly. Even if it was two experiments in one muddling him up.]

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voice folkloristic October 28 2011, 02:03:59 UTC
Robert. That wasn't you, you know that. You're not...you're not Audubon and he was just...scared. From when I talked to him and then being in this place during something like this? [ He can't even imagine. ]

It's this, this experiment. [ There's a tinge of anger and pain in his voice. ] You couldn't help it. People can't help themselves when they wear those masks. [ Like Giles and now Robert. They'd never hurt people they cared about. ]

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voice semper_cogitans October 28 2011, 03:03:06 UTC
[Scared. Yes. He remembers it like it was his own emotional response. The fear at being in a completely foreign place, full of strange "non-mutant mutants", and then the insanity that was happening and everything and...

Robert forces himself to breathe again, to calm himself. Helios' voice has... has something in it, but it's distant and he can't tell and...]

... I kn-know, but... but I am still ashamed. I... it was not... a-acceptable behaviour.

... A-At least, at least I never hurt you or Don... though, I... [Softly:] I-I hated Don. Or... I h-hated who Don was.

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voice folkloristic October 28 2011, 03:26:02 UTC
You shouldn't be. It's not as if you...you could control it Robert. [ But he understands entirely especially when it comes to these experiments. ] Apologize to them. It's-it's at least something and I know you will, you have already.

[ His voice is calming or at least as much as he wills it to be. ] He'll understand.

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voice semper_cogitans October 28 2011, 16:28:08 UTC
H-he deserves better. ... E-Especially now, especially from me...

... His brother and he are... [... Devastated isn't even beginning to describe it.]

... H-Helios, I... I c-cannot stop the family from being... t-torn apart in front of me. I am so helpless.

[He knows he's not even the only one, but it's hard to see past the haze of depression that's settled over him.]

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voice folkloristic October 28 2011, 18:14:22 UTC
That's not true. You aren't helpless, Robert. [ He says it gently. ]

We can't predict these things no matter how much we want to. But we can...we can be there for each when they do. It'll get better... [ it has to get better. This would be where he'd offer to come over, offer to help in anyway possible but he...he can't go out looking like this. Not with the questions it would raise so he stays silent. ]

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voice semper_cogitans October 28 2011, 21:21:47 UTC
[And Robert doesn't want to push. Part of him would lock down anyway, normally. Still, talking to Helios is helping.]

... I... I h-hope so. ... The Hamatos are... p-practically my family too, now. I am c-closer to them than I was to even my own parents...

... To see them feeling this way is... u-unspeakably painful. I will do everything I c-can, but... [He's afraid it isn't enough.]

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voice folkloristic October 28 2011, 23:35:04 UTC
And they'll appreciate that. Doing everything you can is, well, it's something even if you don't think it'll be enough. [ Because he knows you good enough by now to get some of Robert's hesitancy. ]

They'll need your support. So you have to stay strong for them. Unfortunately most of us have had...people close to us taken before. [ Frederic for one. Giles another. Thinking about the ex-watcher makes him stop on his end. ]

You'll have everyone's support. M-Mine definitely.

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voice semper_cogitans October 29 2011, 09:27:10 UTC
I... I know I can always c-count on your support, Helios. This is why I... tr-treasure your... friendship so much...

[Always being there for him. Even now. Even when things are hard for everybody in Luceti.

He has to stay strong. So he pushes the waver in his voice down and tries to make himself seem a little more collected.]

... Is everyone else here? Giles...? I, I spoke to him earlier. As... Audubon. [... Coincidentally, in the very same mask that injured Helios - not that Robert will ever know.]

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voice folkloristic October 29 2011, 19:01:16 UTC
[ Giles. ]

He-he left. [ There's a slight hitch when he says that. ] T-To get his penalty r-removed I mean. [ His voice is wavering but he moves away from the communicator to catch and steady his breathing. ]

He'll be alright though.

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voice | 1/2 semper_cogitans October 30 2011, 00:53:01 UTC
[There is a very brief moment of actual terror at those first words of Helios', and the accompanying hitch. This might be audible as a sudden, sharp, pained inhalation from Robert...]

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